♥YUFANG

2010-09-07T21:14:00.004+08:00

♥279th post ; Family like friends, friends like sunshine. :')

Went out with Maegan today! (:
met at ehub and decided to lunch at Just acia before walking around.
we were the very first diners and the whole place was empty, but the atmosphere was awesome and great. :D
ordered some Dory Cheese thingy and twin ordered Fried Chicken Set,
with free flow of drinks and different flavors of ice-cream! (Y)
chatted while we ate, I LOVE MY FOOD OKAY! ^^
like seriously, that dining restaurant is awesome, and not too expensive at all, with student card.
paid the bill and walked around to buy some snacks to munch on at Maegan's house afterwards.
MRT-ed there and started to do our homework, did quite alot!
completed maths workbook, english grammer and english comprehension!
but, still left literature, chinese compo and english summary to do over the next few days, ROAR. ):
slacked abit and watched Ratatouille together, the mocie was fabulous and super funny! :D
laughed through the whole session and had twin's mother's french toast and bacon with milo for break.
was delicious manzxc, want to try somemore. ^^
homed after that, omg, the circle line station was like shocked me, suddenly have song.
"Train is coming, Train is coming" I mean, wth? Haha.
Thankyou for EVERYTHING TWIN! You're the best ever, ILYTMttt! (L)

2010-09-06T10:10:00.008+08:00

♥278th post ; Dedications.

Hi ZiHua Bestf,
Although we haven't met up for a very long time, I'm glad that we are still bestfriends,
maybe not forever, but I hope I'll always stand a place in your heart.
i know that you've found many many more new friends who cherish you as much as i do in your sec school.
one day, you will call others your bestfriend, i really don't mind.
my only wish is for you to remember me as one of your true friend in primary school,
and all our memories we had spent together, those are the times i'll never forget, i swear.
i still remember the first time i saw you in primary school,
my impression of you was really very bad, probably with the influence of my friends.
i regret to say that i only realise your importance when we became primary 3 bestfriends.
even though we had uncountable quarrels and fights, that's what keeps a true friendship going, right?
yeah, every moment spent in edgefield together with you will be saved carefully in my heart.
i'll never forget you no matter what, and the times we shared with Gladys, Odessa and Stella.
I love you, and i really hope you'll see this.

Hello Gladys bestie,
thank you for always being at my side and supporting me with your encouraging words.
i'll never forget the times we had together from the day we meet in primary 3.
although we had moany fights and friendship problems plus misunderstandings,
you still stayed by my side and chosed to trust me, believing that i will not let you down.
the moments we shared with zihua are the one of the happiest moments in my entire primary school life.
i was really sad to separate with you all in sec school
i hope that you have found a really good friend in school that can share your bitter sweet moments with you.
i am unable to be beside you everytime now, cheering you up like you did.
but i still hope that you'll spend every day of your life happily without regrets.
you are a great awesome friend and you deserve more that what you have now,
i wish you all the best my dear friend, you'll be one of my bestest ever!

Odessa Sunshine and HuiYan Sweet,
thankyou for everything you all have done for me, i really appreciate them alot.
odessa, remember me? i'll never forget you as the bhb one okay!
i really miss the times we spent in 6Faith together, going for every recess with ZiHua ans Stella.
we can't share the moments now, although i truely wish we still can.
your results now are certainly soaring, i wish you good luck in everything you do, i'll never forget you.
tell jolene i said hi, all the best to you two!
huiyan, thanks for being my always loyal friend, don't ever think that i will forget alrights.
even now, we managed to stay in contact with each other, i feel so honoured and proud.
i'm really very carefree and happy when i'm with you, thank you alot.
also thank you for having so much trust in me till now.
i hope that we'll remain close friends forever till the end and never get separated!
jiayous in everything, studies and badminton! I love you!

Zinnia Darling and Marilyn Mummy,
you two have been rewarding me with a pile of encouraging words to cheer me up,
i'm really thankful and speechless over this.
thankyou for being two of my close friends in nan chiau and band,
although i don't really show it, but i really appreciate them alot.
continue to excel in everything you all do, in flute and clarinet!
let's hand out more and get to know each other better shall we?
a huge thank you to you both and i'll never ever forget you!

Vanessa guppylove,
(I'm so sorry i left out yours by accident! Maybe i'm tired to write too!)
hello dear, thank you for always laughing with me and pei-ing me sing snsd songs!
wheee, i will always remember you when i see sooyoung or maybe JERRY as in the tom and jerry.
tsk, haha, its fun using your phone to prank,
see, you have no courage to sms without me around right?
haha, also thanks for the moments at our meeting area near MRT station, i wonder why.
we always have many topics to talk about and surprisingly, i'm not bored at your lameness at all!
thanks for everything, being one of my close friends and whatever.
i will love you forever, P.S/ I love you dedication!

Dearest Maegan Twin,
it is not exactly very correct to classify you under this term,
i'll write more about you under siblings next time, remember to stay tuned and read every word of it okay.
there'll be Jocelyne and Rachael too!
don't worry, you'll be my bestest sister ever. (L)

2010-09-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

♥277th post ; September holidays! :D

Hey peeeeeeeeeeps! (:
I'm back, sorry for the dead dead blog, cause I haven't been updating for quite a few days. ):
First thing first... Outing on 01092010 with dearest Maegan! :D
went to Vivo for a supposed movie, but then decided that all the movies are pretty boring,
so we just planned to walk around and nuahhh.
MRTed there all the way from Punggol to Harbourfront, good job YuFang, you survived! (Y)
almost missed twin at Serangoon station, but luckily, we have telepathy, MUAHAHA.
got onboard and started talking about all sorts of crazy stuffs.
went to find pastamania but unfortunately, we couldn't find, even the directory let us down. ):
BUT, twin introduced me, this lagger, to a super duper interesting resaurant, Marche!
the food there was like so fantastic, shared a chicken and mushroom popiah with twin! ^^
the serving size was huge manzxc, was shocked!
then ordered chocolate chip ice-cream together with twin and munched on it.
afterwards, took a balloon (feels childish but who cares) and paid at the counter.
our bill? $24 ++ so end up have to pay $12 plus for each of us, cool right? ^^
went to acade and took neoprints again, the effects there are like super nice though cheap. :D
afterwards, decided to check out some pets for an hour or so.
they are so efffffing cute can, seriously craving for a hamster, or a dog, or a rabbit. (:
head to diaso and the queue they was super long, everybody kiasu mah!
looked around and decided to go central for some sticky sweets, haven't been there before, feel so toot. :P
wanted to buy some red love hearts at first with twin,
but then the queue was too long, everybody was like snatching here and there, pushing, squeezing.
my gosh, couldn't stand the smell and went to COMPASS!
its still the best place ever, you've got to admit it alrights, have jia de gan jue. :D
bought bubble tea and curry puff and twin bought popcorn chicken at kfc.
talked for an hour plus before going to other shops to walk and stuff while waiting for her mum.
went home after that, and my dearest twin actually went to the LIBRARY, hahahahaha!
so nan de lorh, must applause for her. ^^

Friday, Mr Chong treat our class and 2E to some breakfast!
met twin and koped some food before smuggling them to class to play with Zhongheng's Iphone. (:
after that, played around in class because exam's over, derh! ^^
D&T was okay, helped Joyjoy with all the filing while she did the sanding.
wrote rumours on the board and Rachael almost got angry for the mystery of her missing fly. :D
but then she can't remain angry for long and we just joked and made her SMILE, credits to Jocelyne!
muahahaha, then decided to play a prank on twin and me, jocelyne hid her handphone in Vanessa's bag!
forgot to return her and she ended up rushing back to class for her phone!
went to 7-11 with Isabel to eat cup noodles and gulp for lunch, sent chain messages and chatted with Rebecca.
went back to school and to the band room.
spent most of our time for briefing (CIP) and sectionals on christmas festival and vogelhandler.

Saturday, head to Tiong Baru for CIP to collect canned and dried food for needy families.
sub-grouped with Vanessa, YinXin and WanFen before heading to the residential area to start.
collected out green T-shirts and had a briefing before heading towards our given area.
there were quite alot of dogs there but YX and WF was scared (:
so have to pair up with different partners. ^^
some of the residents are like super funny, thought we want to sell things or ask them donate money.
there was also one who said that they have no EXPIRED food when we wanted canned food!
collected quite alot and assembled to gather all the food for packing.
was sweating alot after the second round and was dead beat and tired.
walked back to meeting spot and had chicken rice for lunch, was not bad. :D
bused back and went home to sleep.

To: MaeganSuAnLi. ♥
Thankyou so much for the awesome dedication on your blog, I was so touched!
happy 21st anniversary my dearest twin! (L)
last long and dont drift yeap, idc whether you have your stupidboy, diamond or meatball,
I will still love you the most! :D MUAHAHAHAHA.
thanks for accompanying me to my craziness and whatever-ness, I really appreciate them alot!
you'll be my best-NCHS friend for ever and ever and ever x100000000!
and of course my dearest twin for life.
also, thanks for all the memories we shared that I'll never forget.
ILYTM and I can't wait for Tuesday and Friday! #1 F&A. Love youuu.

okay, will upload some pictures next time round!
stay tuned and byes. (:
tags replied at your own blog. :D

2010-08-31T18:28:00.004+08:00

♥276th post ; Bugis outing.

Firstly, Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers around the world.
I certainly do not like most of you all and hate you all for you biasness,
but well, I do give you the respect you want. :D So, yup.
performed at school after aces day, first item - jubiliance and shrek dance party.
was quite satisfied but all claimed that we were way too soft this time round compared to CO.
yikes manzxc, we will make improvement next time!
went bugis junction with Clare, Michelle, Maegan and Vanessa after school.
homed and then compassed to have lunch at kfc, again.
MRTed and crapped on the way to bugis, its like a MRT marathon, awesome.
went to shop around and then bought a strawberry ice cream after Clare's. FANTASTIC. :D
then head to bugis street, was lost a few times with Maegan and Vanessa.
catched up with then and talked while they shop and bought some clothings.
after a few hours, decided to go home earlier.
MRTed all the way back to Punggol again and finally reached home.
Thankyou for invitation, Mich and Clare! ^^
next up, outing with dearest tomorrow, can't wait! (:

Lit - 16/25 ):

2010-08-30T22:19:00.004+08:00

♥275th post ; I flunked science, yet I'm still so high. :D

^ This thing here won a 1st. 2D, we ruleeeee! :D
Okay, first thing first, got back our results, all except Literature, but I'm too lazy to wait.
English Compre - 28/50 ; Compo - 17/30.
Chinese - Paper1 - 13/20 ; Paper 2 - 57/90
Science - 16.5/40 (Flunked. ): )
Maths - 36/50
History - 20/20
Geography - 17/25
D&T - 25/40
Seriously, this CA2 results really is totally screwed up by me, sorry my dear report card.
anyways, performing for teachers' day tomorrow! :D
can't wait for cookie giving session, aces day is a waste of time. :/

2010-08-28T19:37:00.002+08:00

♥275th post ; Marilyn's Birthday & Band exchange programme!

27082010
Yesterday was Marilyn's 14th birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
after splashing water at Marilyn for like awhile, went to PizzaHut to celebrate. ^^
gave her the scrapebook and a white doggy YingYi bought at Minitoons.
Chester went to buy a black forest cake for her while we pretend that nothing happened and ordered our food.
shared 2 pizzas with Clare, Marilyn and Claire while the others ordered their own preference(:
when Chester arrived with the cake, Marilyn was so touched! (love her expression)
then the PizzaHut guy went to take a photo of us for display or something. :/
the service was seriously not band there, talked crap while eating and laughed till almost choked.
bullied Chester and Weilin had to bear with Jo's unglamorous eating habit. :D
afterwards, the PizzaHut guys went to light the candles and sang a birthday song for Maril!
everybody started clapping and cheering, she's kind shy. :')
cut the cake and shared between us, that's the best part I love most!
everyone was full so we started pushing the cake and pieces of chocolate to one another!
ended our dinner with a satisfying cup of ice cold water, awesome!
when Chester was paying, Ms Pey came and scared the hell out of him! :D
homed and bathed and slept.
28082010
Today was the exchange programme between NCHS, Siglap, St.Pat and Cat.High.
went to st.pat's after setting up of instruments and stuff.
the school was old but super duper huge and spacious. (:
took turns to perform and so call learn from one another for other schools.
basically Sock Hop Tonight, Promotion March, Jubiliance and part of vogelhandler.
was impressed by our band actually, surprisingly quite well!
after a long 4 plus hours or so, took bus and went to Mac for lunch with section.
ate and talked while we travel back to school.
the bus arrived and went back to school band, was half asleep by then. ):
played Shrek dance and chose blazer before meeting twin at compass to buy some ingredients. :D
went to fairprice and bought ingredients before going cupwalker for ballballtea.
guess who we met there... Vanessa! (:
haha, was about to take bus to my house when maegan's ballballtea bursted!
omg, was so shocked then, went to have it cleaned.
twin stayed for like 1 hour before leaving, can't wait for tomorrow manzxc! ^^

Okay, bye for now!
(P.S/ I super miss you, ZiHua and Gladys. :( )

2010-08-26T15:58:00.007+08:00

♥273th post ; Exams are finally OVER!

Common tests are like finally over, and guess what? :D
I'm totally gonna slack for the whole of this 2-3 weeks and then have to mug for MYE, again.
I don't hate studying, it's just that the teachers and friends around you are the crucial people who affects learning.
Teachers:
Just compare the teachers for sec 1 and sec 2, by just thinking makes me puke.
Please luh, just do your jobs and teach us okay?
Stop being so biased against your students cause what if it's not because our future all lies in your hands,
I wouldn't have given a damn, like seriously.
All kinds of teachers in NanChiau, weird people teachers weird morals and values. :/
Friends:
I want to thank all my fellow 2D classmates, esp my close ones yup. :D
I really love you all, and thank you all for your encouragement, whether is positive or negative!
You, by doing well in class is motivating me to study harder too, so all JIAYOUS together for the next term! (:
lets all study hard and play hard okay?
Here, I want to give out some hearts to my dearests.

QinAiDe ; ChengTzeLingJocelyne, RachaelLowHweeMin, SheeHuiJinVanessa, SuAnLiMaegan.
Thank you all for your encouragement and support all this while.
Without you all, I wouldn't have been able to make it alrights?
Also, thanks for being a part of my wonderful memory in my secondary life, playing and joking,
whether it is pervertic (Jocelyne), crazy (Rachael), high (Vanessa) or my Dearest Love, Maegan,
It is still a joy to have you all around, cheering me up when I'm down, and giving me a goal in life. (L)

Of course there are still many many more awesome friends around me, including you, who is reading this post.
Thank you, Zinnia, Le'schane, PeiZhen, Clare and Isabel okay?
WoAiNiMen alot alot okay? XieXieNi for all the fun and joy you brought about! :D
I will remember you guys forever!

♥ Dearest twin (I hope you see this),
thanks for being by my side all this while, I really appreciate it alot. (:
you will be my one and only closest twin ever okay, even if the world comes crashing down!
no matter what happen, we'll stay close and never drift alright, you should stop having doubts about us again.
know why? cause I'm lecturing you can.
HAHAHA! No way, cause you'll be a part of me for life and that will never ever change, I swear!
you really mean a whole huge chunk to me okay?
thanks for everything, let's continue being high high high forever yup? :D
You must trust me, GaoYuFang will love you, MaeganSuAnLi, the mosttttttttttttt! (L)

That's all for now, off to youtube and facebook!

2010-08-23T16:56:00.004+08:00

♥272th post ; You all mean alot to me. :)

I am lucky, I have my family; I am lucky, I have my friends.
I am lucky, to experience life on planet Earth, why should I not SMILE? :D

Lyrics ; A whole new world
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But, now, from way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes)
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath it gets better)
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
With new horizons to pursue
I'll chase them aywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
(Every turn a surprise)
With new horizons to purue
(Every moment red-letter)
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Anywhere, there's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Meaningful nice song, I'm going to look for more disney songs after common test.
and, I'm most probably near to failing my maths and science for today.
the papers are like so darn hard can, not only to me, but to everyone.
wth happened to all the nice teachers last time?
I'm wondering if I should still give them teacher day present or not.
most probably yes, I've thought of an idea. :D

2010-08-21T15:22:00.004+08:00

♥271th post ; You are my world.

Somehow, I really wish that the world's gonna end in 2012.
2010 is the worst yet most memorable year ever, I hate it.
Stop pretending you understand, just shut up.
I'll rather get hurt by the truth than to be protected by a lie, and why must it be you?

The truth is : Everyone is going to hurt you. You have to find the ones worth suffering for.

via ClareChing. :D

2010-08-20T17:17:00.006+08:00

♥270th post ; Sometimes, a smallest decision can change your life forever.

I feel like giving up, but the thought of losing you is unbearable.

Hey people! :D
4 tests over, we're left with Science, Maths, D&T/home.E and Literature for the next week!
then common test will be over!
i'm already on the holiday mood now, grrrrr. I feel that I'm letting myself down. :/
OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, TAEYEON. :) x
hee, that was random but still, that's what came to my mind suddenly.
school was interesting, spoke with Mr chong and he's like super dee duper funny can!
laughed till stomachache, darn unglam.
pasted stickers on classmates' and teachers' backs just for fun.
rachael and the teachers are fun to disturb. :')
returned home from compass after lunching and slacking with Maegan and Vanessa. :D
ate Kfc for lunch and then went to just walk around compass.
then maegan bought ballballtea before finding a place to chat and blahh.
talk for a while before maegan had to leave, sad. :(
then vanessa and I started singing songs, bought curry puff and the bands from comics connection.
chat for a while more and then started chasing for bus and went home.
okay, so there's nothing more to elaborate.
I wanna try listening to Into The New World, awesome? Good. (Y)
byeee!

2010-08-19T15:17:00.003+08:00

♥269th post ; Friends like sunshine. :)

OHMYGOD, my blog is going to die, sooner or later.
sorry guys, I'm gonna continue my daily blogging after common test yups.
keep the tags rolling in, I still reply them okay! :D
lastly, my fellow 2Ders, GoodLuck for the common test yup?
a few more to go, and then we can all relax and play hard!
Love y'all.

wish at 11:11pm, It really does come true. :')

2010-08-13T17:47:00.006+08:00

♥268th post ; Are you out there to ruin our lifes? A pity you failed.

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Thanks for making everyone's life so miserable. Just what are you trying to do? 过河拆桥 is it? Why are you always trying to harm everyone that tries to be nice and accept you? We shouldn't have been bribed by your words. you only know how to badmouth people behind their back so that the others will hate that person right? Do you even have the rights to judge anyone? None of your victims said anything negetive about you, why must you always let them down? I never thought you are a person with motives. I feel like saying all the vulgarities at you, right in your yhctib face. But I've promise my dearest twin never to, thats why I kept it in. Know what? I'll never trust you again. Liar. We are fooled by you again and again, but we've learnt our lesson. We won't get tricked by you again. You think you can blend in? Never. We gave you a chance, but you didn't cherish it. Too bad. We're never going to forgive you again. I will never ever believe you again. We're not going to let you break any of us up. I . Hate . You. Eff you.

(Please don't think that I'm talking about you, cause It's not, I'm certain! :D )

2010-08-09T08:18:00.002+08:00

♥267th post ; HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! 09082010, Monday. :]

Hello peeeeeps!
No school today, no school tomorrow! double yay!
Firstly, Happy Birthday Ah Ma, Wai Po, Grandma! (: ♥
I love you way more than I love Singapore! :D
anyways, today's gonna be super dee duper fun, celebrating her birthday and staying late for programmes. ^^
Karate kid again yesterday night, still as awesome luh. Wheeeee!
smsed twin the whole day yesterday, omg, my phone bill's gonna soar, like SingJiaPuo!
but who cares, I'm not paying for it! LOL. :B
I'm so tired, bleh. :X
this is so gonna be random, so bofore I start crapping, BYE!

2010-08-06T20:27:00.001+08:00

♥266th post ; NC Talent Quest! :D

everyone did just great in today's NC talent quest! (:
the BANDERS got 1st, congratulations for them and of course all the other contestants!
you all did awesome, I feel so proud of you all, continue jiayou-ing! :D
MAEGAN, you did just as wonderful and drama is coordinated, really! Feel proud of yourself! ^^
haha, lunched at macs with Maegan and Vanessa after school.
talked crap and read my storybook while laughing along with them.
then, vanessa went to put BLUE BRACES, we wanted rainbow or yellow. :(
decided to go ehub to catch a movie at first, but then the movie are like all so late!
plus without any nice movies like DESPICABLE ME IN 3D!
went to nuy ballballtea, shaotang, and went to kfc to have my lunch.
after that, went to a gift shop and bought a badge together with twin! (L) :D
Love it ttm, it says: "bad girls are good girls that always get caught." cool shyt!
ke xi, twin had to go home after receiving a call from the mum and took bus 3 home.
smsed all the way back while desperately clinging on to the railings. :(
such a great day, WoLoveDieNi MAEGANSUANLI! ♥

2010-08-05T19:24:00.005+08:00

♥265th post ; NATIONAL DAY! :D

I LOVE NATIONAL DAY! ~~I LOVE SINGAPORE!~~ I LOVE HOLIDAYS! (:
Haha, okay, I love Singapore too! :')
Happy National Day ; 09082010 to my beloved Sing Jia Puo! ^^
not going to post for now, common test! ARGH!
almost failed science, eff yea, only 14.5/25, but never mind, I'll buck up! Yay! :D
I love RMJ! ♥

Dearest Maegan, I know I fail as a friend, I ain't as perfect as you think.
Go find your true happiness, true friend, good luck. :)
I know you've already found yours, cherish Jenna forever,
we both know she treats you way better than I do, I'm sorry.
I just hope to remain as friends with you for always, love you!

2010-08-03T19:38:00.003+08:00

♥264th post ; Random.

Maegan's intro to this meaningful song. Go listen, its really very nice(:

Lyrics ; An Jing Le.

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人結婚進行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河裡
爱我还是爱你你选择了自己

撒嬌的可爱的黏人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够給我

你说我給你太多却不能給我什么
分不清激情承诺永恆或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后溫柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
安靜了在我枕邊的梦裡
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一加一努力就有結局

撒嬌的可爱的黏人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
臉頰的淚还溫熱却沒有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脫让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够給我

你说我給你太多却不能給我什么
分不清激情承诺永恆或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后溫柔是因为我太爱你

2010-08-03T19:17:00.003+08:00

♥263th post ; Hectic week.

something to cheer myself up, despicable me! :D - Its so fluffy I'm gonna die! (:

I'm seriously bored, entertain me please?

02082010 ;
compassed with Vanessa, Rachael and Isabel to purchase my dearest SNSD CARD! :D
OMG, it's like so awesome + nice! Rawr.
bought 2 while Rachael and Vanessa bought one each, I feel so kiasu. :(
anyway, I want the TAEYEON badge! :DDD
haha! lunched at kfc and walked back to school for band, till 5 plus and went home.

03082010 ;
I got my I Love You stickys! ^^
compassed again with Maegan and Vanessa,
lunched at macdonald and laughed like mad, esp when Vanessa reveal something to Maegan! (:
haha, twin went to drama afterwards.
walked around compass and decided to share a mr bean ice cream cup with Vanessa.
treat her to eat luh, took some unglam pictures and went home.

thanks to those who have been trying to make me smile, sorry to disappoint those who wished to see me in such pathetic state. :/

2010-08-01T14:01:00.004+08:00

♥162th post ; Fun Fun Fun! :D

Hello people! (:
next week is going to be a super dee duper hectic one, with tests all coming up. :/
went to dearest Maegan's house yesterday! :D
met up with her at compass and she was late for 15 minutes!
how kind i am to forgive her, haha!
walked around and realised that it is still breakfast meal at both kfc and macs.
so decided to order from house later.
went to shop and safe to get some snacks while her father wait for us outside.
bought shao ji fan for her borther before heading to her house.
slacked at her house and camwhored, snacked, chatted before finally starting on maths homework. :(
wanted to do some geog and science revision but was too lazy so, just watch some korean SNSD video! (L)
after that, changed out and went fr a swim below twin's house, she wore a bikini!
haha, just kidding. :P
take some pictures and swam, played, splashed for 1 hour plus before going up to bathe(:
continue snacking and catched some channel 8 drama, nice ttm! :D
then, twin stuffed some snacks to me before sending me home.
THANK YOU MAEGAN, I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF A WHOLE LOT WITH YOU! (L)
WoAiNiZuiDuo, thanks for all your support and encouragement! Xoxo!

ZiHua ;
hello bestf., hope that you are feeling okay now, I LOVE YOU MOST MOST MOST! (:

Tags Replied ;
>Cheryl: Yeah, haha! It was damn funny sia! (:
>Vanessa: Hello guppylove, thank you! (L) :D
>YingYi: Hello! Thanks for tagging, relinked! :B
>Clare: Hello good girl! :D
>Zinnia: Thanks darling, your messages seriously cheered me up alot. Love you! (L)
>Maegan: HELLO! Yeah, i'll never ever forget! 31072010! (:
>Junice: Hey, thankews!
>Le'schane: Thanks, you too! :D

2010-07-30T19:15:00.002+08:00

♥261th post ; Riverside Park. :D

went to riverside park for rubbish picking today, twin, rachael and jocelyne came my house after school.
compassed to wait for twin's cup walker bfore taking 83 to my house.
head to punggol plaza to have our lunch, chicken rice! (:
talked and chatted then went my house to play around with our hair and uno.
ended up being late by a few minutes, but who cares, ran all the way to school.
proceed to riverside park and then partner twin for rubbish thingy.
my umbrella over flipped the way there, and its like trapping water on top, gahgah, cool manzxc, left it like that.
haha, we splashed puddles on zhongheng too, which pissed him off.
my socks landed up all wet when he splashed back, wth.
spotted more than a hundred millipedes there, long long with black black one, GROSS.
i think i stepped on a few without knowing it. :X
rachael and jocelyne slcacked while i picked the rubbish and maegan holding the umbrella.
did i mention it was freaking raining?! ROAR.
afterwards, exchanged roles and i took charge of the umbrella, yay! ^^
have our seaweed and chocolated and sweets after returning to the shelter. :D
played around and waited for cm and co.
wanted to buy drink in 7-11 and macs, but then Mrs Ong don't allow, boo!
so walked back thirsty and bought a gulp with twin at shell, ponned band too. :B
went punggol plaza and bought some snacks to picnic at my house before sending her home.
going twin's house tmr, can't wait to swim with her! (L)
thats all for now, byebye! I ♥ RMJ.F&A!

P/S. Zihua bestfriend! Are you okay now, what happened to you, reply me in facebook!
get well soon and rest well yup? I love you, I miss you, I want you, I need you! D:

2010-07-29T19:10:00.004+08:00

♥260th post ; HAPPY, AWESOME TTM! (:

I got my Raspbeery Lemonade, Cola Pillows, Chocomint Crunchies and Sour Cherry Cola yesterday! :D
thanks to Clare, Christine and Cheryl!
after twin's MC, she brought a huge load of stuffs in classroom to eat, there's biscuits, mashmallow and ricola!
played with the mashmallow and made disgusting faces with 'foam'. :D
Vanessa stuffed 3 big mashmallows in her mouth, I got 4 and laughed till i puked out 2, GROSS. :X
haha, random day again, but laughed wildly with twin and jiehs, wheeeee! (:
got back our maths test, 22/25, not bad, the fact that i did not really study hard.
another maths test after school, i'm just gonna die, die, die, die, die, die, die!
pyramids, cones, spheres, cylinders, hemispheres, wth is going on with education now?
i don't get set notation that chapter at all, but luckily data is easier, yay! ^^
ponning band due to some riverside park thingy, twin coming my house to dump her bag here first. :D
planning ti eat afterwards before going back to school.
school's boring, except for the filming part for english that made rachael laughed like a crazy woman.
okay, till now, facebook! bye! (:

(might be MIA for a few days due to preparation of common test)
keep the tags rolling in, I'll still reply then asap yup! :B

2010-07-27T17:00:00.007+08:00

♥259th post ; not-so-AWESOME DAY! (:

its not that great because... my dearest twin is sick and pangsehed my in school.
wah, good luh, rest at home, while we all have to mug like hell in school. :(
and, I GOT A FLU FROM YOU! Sneezed the whole day in school, LOL. :D
GET WELL SOON MAEGAN SU ANLI! WoAiNiZuiDuo! (L)
and, its awesome because of my two lovely jiehs and Vanessa who pei-ed my while twin is absent, thanks!
sang snsd song the whole day till joyjoy got mad, haha!
packed chinese file with Vanessa and FUNMING WAS KENA PEKCHEKED BY RACHAEL! (:
rachael was like laughing so loud til the whole class turned to look at her,
until fm covered his ears and threatened to hit rachael using her file.
then she did the most extraordinary thing, she screamed like siao for a good 5 seconds!
omg, fm was so stunned, you should have seen his horrified and pek chek face then. :D
ate noodles with clique and chased back to class by ms pey and mr neo.
just glup down the noodles in 5 minutes, and i added like two spoonfull of chili?!
end up Joyjoy was the one who won even though I brought it first.
wah, after that my whole mouth was like on fire, drank rachael's carrot juice. Thanks!
played with Joyjoy's hair and tie more than 3 hairstyle using her long and smexay hair!
sang the NanChiau song like siao again, HuiNgoh was like laughing like mad after we finish singing.
half the floor turned to look at us when I finally bursted out laughing halfway.
I love JocelyneCheng! Thanks for being so pervertic, horny, and funny, esp in hall today! ^^
I love RachaelLow! You laughed like hell today, although I didn't really get most of the parts. :D
I love VanessaShee! XieXieNi pei me today yups, hope you enjoyed it too!
ahhh, we have so many surprises for twin when she returns to school tomorrow, wakaka(:
we shall continue the poem and tease rachael! (continue pass the letter!) ROFLMAO.
no homework for today, yayness manzxc!
Look forward to twin returning to school tomorrow! I love you!

2010-07-26T19:32:00.003+08:00

♥258th post ; I'm not perfect, neither are you.

School's starting to get a little bit more interesting now, hope it gets better soon(:
I love our script for english, including Rachael's mistakes!
Jiayu and JingYi were wrapping a present which consists of tomato ketchap, tissue paper, batteries and others!
ROFLMAO, what an awesome and creative birthday present! ^^
lunched with rachael, Jocelyne, Vanessa and JiaYu before visiting the gallery thingy.
packed chinese file before heading to band afterwards.
homed after playing der vogelhandler.

Genie ;

is it nice? i don't know why Rachael and Vanessa like it so much. :D
okay, I know I suck in all ways, bye.

2010-07-25T08:22:00.003+08:00

♥257th post ; Common Test schedule.

13082010, Friday; English (7.40-9.10)
Geography (9.20-9.50)

20082010, Friday; Higher Chinese (7.40-9.10)
History (9.20-9.50)

23082010, Monday; Mathematic (7.40-8.40)
Science (9.00-9.45)

24082010, Tuesday; Design & Technology (7.40-8.25)

25082010, Wednesday; Literature (7.40-8.10)

& then, there's this stupid Australian Maths Competition on 05082010, thursday.
Its going to be a hectic month again, roars.
STICKY, what flavour shall I buy? Some recommendations please? :D
I really need something to cheer me up right now.

2010-07-24T10:17:00.009+08:00

♥256th post ; Random! :D

OMG, SNSD is so freaking awesome! Taeyeon, SeoHyun, Yoona & Yuri! ♥

Run Devil Run ;

Sorry Rachael, I don't like your dear Tiffany anymore, but I still admire her english :D

Tags Replied ;
>Vanessa: LOL! okay, spam all you want! :D
>Cheryl: HAHAHA. you all did put in alot of effort!
>Junice: Hump then fall! (:
>Chinbee: Booooo! Band was fun! ^^
>Clare: Hello my dearest! We're going to catch up soon! Der VogelHandler! :D
>Maegan: Alrights, love you too! (L)
>ShiYong: Hmmmmm?
>Vanessa: Sure bo? HAHAHA. okay luh, believe you after your not-very-detailed explaination(:
>Maegan: Awh, thank you my dearest twin! Yeah, can't wait for sat! :DD okay, you're booked too! :B
>VanessaTYL: Ha, you too! (: sure sure! Lovee!
>Clare: HIIII my awesome! (: we will own der vogelhandler soon!
>Cheryl: Shhhh!Wo men zhuan dao le! :D

kthxbye, see you soon!

2010-07-23T22:47:00.004+08:00

♥255th post ; Live. laugh. love.

Schools and lessons and teachers and homeworkks and crap talk with sisters as usual today(:
sang many songs together and played chess, woohoo!
i actually find studying quite meaningful, for once, how interesting.
must buck up, common test next months already, die. :X
haha, went for napfa after school, got all As in my 4 stations, can't believe it.
except for the face that the standing board jump that almost killed me, got 164, yay! :D
ate and went band afterwards, der vogelhandler-ed with clarinetist sectionals and went home.
claire wants either me or clare to go bass clarinet, rorars, we'll see about that.
I don't want history to repeat itself, must learn to defend myself.
here's a song to cheer myself up, and oh yeah, snsd rocks socks, esp Taeyeon! (L)

Lyrics ; The Wave song.

Oooooooooooooh woooooooooohh hohoho
Oooooooooooooh woooooooooohh hohoho

Blame your mother, blame your father, blame the season, blame the Maker
See the waters, down in Orchard, Lucky Plaza, basement flooded

We have a big longkang, our drains should to be Number One
But when the freak rain come
In the end we still lan lan

So we say

When I eat horfun, I saw the rain come
I call PUB, they never call me back
I think they damn slack
I think they damn slack
I think they damn slack

I think they damn

When I drink Horlick, I saw the rain come
I call PUB, they never call me back
My car in void deck
I can’t find my cat
My underwear wet

And there it goes

Oooooooooooooh woooooooooohh hohoho
Oooooooooooooh woooooooooohh hohoho

Say it’s garbage, say it’s blockage, say it’s bad luck, that drain got stuck
PM say don’t, unrealistic, Singapore can’t, be zero flood

Time to buy sampan, don’t park in Basement One
And when the freak rain come
Why this song so Cheena one?

So we say

When I eat horfun, I saw the rain come
I call PUB, they never call me back
I think they damn slack
I think they damn slack
I think they damn slack

I think they damn

When I eat chee cheong fun, I saw the rain come
I call PUB, they never call me back
My car in void deck
I can’t find my cat
My underwear wet

And there it goes

Oooooooooooooh woooooooooohh hohoho

2010-07-22T17:59:00.002+08:00

♥254th post ; STRESSED. :(
10 reasons why i'm so effing stressed up:
1. Band. (SYF)
2. Chinese Test.
3. Maths Test.
4. English Test.
5. Homework.
6. Projects.
7. Teachers.
8. Results.
9. Music Test.
10. Geography Test.

i'm really tired of school life now, i feel like i'm just a robot working for the school lorh. :/
but all thanks to Rachael, Jocelyne, Vanessa and twin for cheering me up in class! ♥
and to Clare too, for bucking me up and accompaning me during band(:
roars, getting my stickys sweets on next wednesday by Clare and Christine, yay!
bought 4 packets, like twin did too! -I love you, smiley, purple heart and disco rock! :D
gosh, i'm so in love with it luhs, triple hearts!
gah, nothing interesting in class now, but i'm getting over-reactive, must calm down, laughing for no good reason.
my stomach still hurts from the 39 push ups i did, how am i supposed to go for the 5 sations tomorrow? DIE. :X
i lost 3 marks for maths test alr, tsk tsk.
okay, posting a funny video introduced by twin, the edited version for waving flag. Enjoy.

Thats all, I love my sisters and friends, xoxo!

2010-07-18T12:58:00.004+08:00

♥253th post ; 17072010 - I love MaeganSuAnLi!

hello peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeps! (:
went to twin's house for homework and stuffs yesterday, in other words, play!
hahaha, her house was awesome, spacious and cool, large space to run around yeah.
ate lunch at compass first before heading to cold storage to buy some sushi and shortbread biscuits. :D
collected her father's birthday cake at emicake.
waited for her dad while we just stroll along, decided to camwhore a little at burger king.
went up shortly afterwards and reached her house in about 10 plus minutes time.
amazes at the surroundings, very cooling and bright!
then explored her whole house before locking ourselves in the room for some maths first.
pangsehed geog and listen to some songs and watched "My Sister's Keeper"! ♥
omgawd, the show was great and quite touching, having alot of sacrifying.
drank some 7-up and peach tea with shortbread, then tried twin's salmon sushi. ^^
sunk lazily into her bed and can't get up afterwards, ended uo watching the movie there.
after the movie ended, went to her swimming pool and playground to camwhore and play.
recorded videos and raced in the pool, haha!
twin brought her robe and some floading thingy there, but sadly her pants still got wet. :P
played on her swing, photo-ed and went home.
thank twin's parents for sending me home yups, thanks x10000000000! :D
will post photos on fb wefore wed(:
I LOVE DEAREST MAEGANSUANLI!
P.s/: I miss rachael, Jocelyne and Vanessa. :(

Tags Replied ;
>Clare: Yeah! (:
>ShiYong: .___.
>Vanessa: Love you too! (:
>Le'schane: Hello! (L)
>ZiHua: Hi bestf! :D
>Cheryl: Thanks babe!
>Vanessa: Aiyoh, update le luh! ^^
>ShiYong: Thanks!
>JiaYu: No bloblem, love you!
>Vanessa: Hey beloved, thank you. :D
>Maegan: Hey, thanks! Love you most!
>ShiYong: Next time bahs. ;)
>Maegan: Touched by your dedi, love you dearest! (:
>Le'schane: Hey, thank you! Love you more! (L)
>Cheryl: No problem yup, you too! :D
>Vanessa: Hello guppy, thank you!
>Christine: Hiiiii! ^^

Lyrics ; Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did.

(Introduced by MaeganSu. :D)

2010-07-17T08:34:00.003+08:00

♥252th post ; My 3 sists made my day. :D

lessons were boring as usual, slacked with twin the whole day,
and laughed like mad, it's the most ridiculars laughter i've ever heard from twin and myself(:
A BIG THANK YOU TO Rachael, Maegan and Jocelyne! I (L) y'all the MOSTTT^^
anyways, thanks dear guppy for revealing things to me huh. ;) *winks*
oh yarh, sweetheart came my house to play and study yesterday, made fun luhs!
she bought me a belated birthday present! - a white t-shirt and a monkey kepchain! awh thanks! (L)
hope she posted the 40++ photos on fb, muahahaha. :D
band band band as usual, laughed and crapped with clare and vanessa.
up next is a wonderful rainy day with deatest baby twin, thanks so much for the awesome and touching letter.
i'll lock it safe forever!
and i must say, rachael and maegan's chicken rice tastes heavenly, wheeeee!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL OSB! (:
hope that you enjoyed yesterday alrights, bet you got a tremendous surprise, i taupok you arh! :D
okay, till now, byes people, got to prepare myself!

2010-07-13T20:30:00.002+08:00

♥251th post ; I'm addicted to facebook! :D
theres band tomorrow for everyone, which means, i get to see my dearest seniors and juniors(:
woohoo, went to have lunch with guppy and isabel after mock australian maths test or whatever thingy. :X
i'm gonna fail like siao, but anyway, who cares for that stupid test out to ruin my day? ^^
i must stay happy as ever,
like when i'm with SuAnLiMaegan, JocelyneChengTzeLing, RachaelLowHweeMin and VanessaSheeHuiJin! (L)
rahh, school's boring, but i'm starting to love sciences alot, it's like fabulous, better than other subjects.
hope that i can cope well with maths, history and geography though, haha.
i'm addicted to band now, suddenly wanted to go today with Jolene(:
everyday now's- wake up, school, band, television, homework, computer, sleep, can't take it anymore! D:
i miss my 6faith friends, esp ZiHua and Gladys ley, how?
gosh, i haven't handed in my art piece, and then theer's like art tomorrow. *i'm diaoing myself now*
okay, thats all for now, blog's dead, alive at facebook, moderate at twitter.
follow me @ yufangheartxzc, my user name, love you all! smacks!

2010-07-12T20:43:00.005+08:00

♥250th post ; I (L) Chicken Soup series! (: (insert loads of hearts)

okay, it's so damn nice and awesome and meaningful can!
awwh, sweet manzxc, i'm gonna chiong all during the next holiday so yeapp, wish me good luck.
posting for the sake of guppy, keep on pestering me to post, oh well. :D
2 Poems for the most special people in my life, you know who you are, so.

I thought she was my bestfriend, the best I ever had.
Instead I found out the truth, and what I learned was sad.
We still call each other friends, but I feel we're far apart.
Though we see each other everyday, I have a broken heart.
She has made new friends, and I have made some, too.
We are talking less and less, and inside I'm cold and blue.
Each and every night I pray, that she will finally see.
How much I want our friendship back, and how much she means to me.

A friend will not talk bad about you, and will never lie.
Friends are always there for you, if you need to cry.
Friends will be there for you, through thick and thin.
When the rest of the world walks out on you, a friend will walk in.

-

had a super dee duper uper fun day with jiehs,
crapped till every teacher kept calling our names, but really, who even cares?
I just wanna be with my dearest baobeh twinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! ♥
okay, wanted to go band today, but then changed my mind as Clare, Marilyn and Weilin aren't going. :(
went to library instead with isabel to borrow books then went for lunch.
met my 2 jiehs and guppy. ^^v
ate hotplate (burnt my tongue) again and then went to gaigai aroung the school.
went back and forth from library to 2E gain and again. :D
HAHAHA, in conclusion, I won!
decided to homework together in library after some green tea plus noodles.
completed it and walked to compass for our dinner, KFC-ed again.
i'm really gonna cut down completely on KFC this month, provided i can luh. :P
rahh, homed and made guppy miss a bus, yay for me, won again, haha!
don't feel cheated Vanessaaa! (:
i own you some sticky for your birthday right. heehee.
and now joyjoy and her are like pestering me with some disgusting youtubes on msn,
and my facebook is lagging like hell, eff yea! :(
so, bye!

2010-07-11T10:04:00.009+08:00

♥249th post ; National Band Contest. :D

We got a... silver! (: keep it up NCWO! Our efforts finally paid off right?
my blog is dying, but anyways, I don't bother to keep it alive already.
I wanna focus on my studies and of course, my dearest BANDDD, family and friends.
Haha, Shines In Harmony yeserday, didn't go.
I freaking miss my twin and Vanessa, finally can see them tomorrow. :D
and I've decided, to be a TEACHER.
okay, I know i'm gonna regret but, that's just a foolish thought.
I'm alive at facebook and twitter now, byebye blog.
I don't know why, I've a feeling i'm letting my friends down, I'm gonna make it all up for them.

P.ZiHua, ♥

2010-07-07T22:44:00.004+08:00

♥248th post ; I can't make up my mind. :(

Mr Lu's,
http://hanamichi-1989.livejournal.com/
and a fb account at Zhengyou Lu, yucks.

Biology or Physics? I guess I'm taking geography, cause my history sucks.
I wish I could take both without chemistry.
Lunched with GuppyLove, Vanessa, and Theresa at KFC today!
a super duper enjoyable plus funny plus extremely gross one. :X
thank you VanessaC for giving me advice on science and Maths, (L)
gtg have my sleep now, byes.

2010-07-05T17:28:00.004+08:00

♥247th post ; 6Faith'08's Class Gathering! (: (L)

Firstly, Happy 14 Bithday to OdessaLingJiaYing ; 06072010 & AleciaLimShiMin ; 13072010! :D
hope that you guys have fun today, which i did!
Girls- XinYi, Denise, Gladys, Isabel, Jolene, Alecia, HuiYan, WeiQi, Odessa, rebecca & me! ( reg no. )
Boys- I didn't actually have a good look at those who went, sorry!
HaoChen, Jeffrey, KinLoon, Jordan, Leonard, Yaqzan, KiatFong, Javior are the confirmed ones. :/
anyways, met Gladys and went to econ to meet the others, and surprisingly, we were the first two!
haha, bus 3-ed to ehub and sat with Odessa! (L)
played with her iTouch and Glady's iPhone, Omg, they're cool and very shuang. :D
went to book movie tickets first.
discussed on the tickets for like half an hour before decideing to watch 'Knight and Day'.
after that, went to arcade for like 1 plus hour and played like mad.
jolene and i wanted to get Odessa sth for the dirthday but then, we failed badly.
we still had fun anyways. :D
then, discussed for some time regarding what to eat, and we met MRS HO, remember?
final decision : guys ate superdog while the rest ate Just Acia, 2nd time i'm eating and its way too awesome! (:
shared a plate of fried chicked with isabel and got free flow of drink plus ice-cream!
Gladys and i then decided to buying bears for Odie and Ale, and thats what we did, hope they like it.
we each bought a domo keychain too, love it ttm.
went back to the cinema again to catch the movie at 2.20pm, after buying medium combo with Gladys.
& , the show was FABULOUS! gosh, i was stunned, the title don't look absorbing, but the movie sure is! ^^v
I love this scene the most!
"I warned you."
"What?"
"Somethings are meant to be like that."
"Next time just tell me. June, if you get up that plane, you'll effing die."
was tired and a little bored afterwards, TAXI-ED home with jolene, rebecca and xinyi,
while Gladys went to meet her mum.
today was amazing, special thanks to those who made my day such an enjoyable and memorable one.
apity ZiHua can't go, haiix. :((((((((((
6 FAITH ROCKS SOCKS!
I missed the project thingy with Maegan, Rachael and Jocelyne, sorry dearest! D: I love you all most!
P.S/: will update more photos next time.

2010-07-04T09:20:00.010+08:00

♥246th post ; Jubilance . Promotion March . Best Of Queens .

Tags Replied ;
YuFang to Jeryl ; awwh, don't cry! Yeah, I have self esteem too! *proud* HAHA! He wear tights?! OMG, didn't realise. :X I love you too! (L) :D
YuFang to Zinnia ; School's fine, how about you? (:
Yufang to Cheryl ; Not abit, is VERY VERY sian. :( he sucks as a teacher, not qualified. :D
YuFang to Vanessa ; No problem dearest guppy! Feel free to find me again! Love you too! ;)
YuFang to Junice ; Yeah, you bet I do! (L)
YuFang to Maegan ; hello, I love you too. :D
YuFang to ShiYong ; (:
YuFang to Maegan ; I won't, I didn't, you did! MUAHAHAHA. :DD
YuFang to Zinnia ; Not our fault, *points finger* Mr Pan's! D: RAHH!
YuFang to ShiYong ; Why the :O ?
YuFang to Clare ; Yayness, shingz! (:
YuFang to Vanessa ; I tagged you little guppy! :D Heartxzc!
YuFang to Cheryl ; Thank you, I love you! You can do it in home.e too! ^^v

10072010, gosh! 6 days away! National Band Competition,
really hope to achieve a gold, we've practiced so much!
i have full confidence in band, esp CLARINET SECTION! yay! (:
I'm currently in loveeeee with Jubilance, it's hot, its cool! RAWR. :D
'That thing you do' is quite easy and nice too, but i don't know how to appreciate that song. :(
first week of school and there's so much homework waiting for me to clear alrd.
wth, I OFFICIALLY HATE D&T, last year was so much better and more enjoyable.
but, luckily, i'm not the rep anymore, so good luck to me.
this blog is going to be oh-so date for the next few months, need to chiong homework and stuffs.
surprisingly, i can't wait for year end examination, or perhapes what's after it!

There's alot of nice movies recently that I crave and crave to watch! Shall i? :D
There's ToyStory 3, Eclipse, Despicable Me, and Letter To Juliet (from Clare's blog).
only managed to catch Marmaduke, A Team, Karate Kid and Prince Of Percia this holiday, rahh! *cries.
6Faith'08 watching ToyStory 3 tmr, shall i go with them or do music project with twin and co?
i hate being stuck in this kind of situations, really really unbearable.

oh and last thing before i go,
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO ODESSA ; SUNSHINE! (L)
06072010 ; i'll wish you on that day too, love you most.
& , rachael is influencing me with SNSD, esp Taeyeon and Tiffany! gahgah. :D ♥

am i too paranoid, or is it you, who can't give me that same feeling back again?

Editted @ 12.55.
I want green apple sticky plus campagne. :D

2010-07-03T17:58:00.005+08:00

♥245th post ; Hello World.

"The Five People You Meet In Heaven" = AWESOMEEE & super meaningful! :D - Mitch Albom.
just finished reading it and have 2 more books by this author waiting for me!
decided to finish reading them all by this weekend and leave my maths alone. :X
returned from Rachael's house and left twin's D&T file there, blehs and boos for me. :(
"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from the inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves." - Pg 149.
I (L) (L) (L) it to the max! (: can't wait for the other 2 books, yay!
planned to do Science project, but ended up just watching video and stuffs as we faced some problems.
rahh, pissed off, i just freaking wasted half of my day. Eff yeah.
Ohmygosh, WATERMELON DAY! Wheeeee, (inserts hearts and smileys)
Ex-class outing or Music Project? I ~~hate~~ dislike this kind of feeling. :(

-

{♥}
Its surprising how people can just erase you from their lives because its easier than working things out?
I love looking at photos, it brings back fond memories of you and I, that we don't share anymore.
I thank god that even if the person change, the person in the photo remains the same.
I look back and cry, I don't know if you have been thinking about me recently,
but alot has happened, and all I about when i'm in trouble is you, why won't you be there like you always did?
have you forgotten me, or worse still, have you forgotten yourself, what you used to be?
you mean so much to me it hurts to see you change into someone I can no longer rely on.
is that what happens when people drift, I thought you were the most true friend I've ever had,
and you still are, as the spirit of one's true self still remains deep inside you.

I'm in battle with myself.
I'm losing.

2010-07-01T18:45:00.003+08:00

♥244th post ; Orchid Country Club's performance! (:

30062010 ;
Laughing day with sisblings. :D
01072010 ;
Band Performance(:
HAHAHAHAHA, today's performance was a failure to me. :(
most didn't realise that it was the actual performance, and not a rehearsal.
Boo! and I thought it was okay to "zao xia", Laugh-out-louds.
anyway, the place was okay, and the food was okay too. :D
lunched with VanessaSenior before heading home.
have english homework need to chiong, planning to write big big one, then cover more space. ^^v
yay for me, sorry for pangsehing you twin! I love you, and i know you won't mind, right? :D (L)
I LOVE BESTFRIEND.

Clarinet's Family Tree ;
Lao Dou- Chester.
Mummy- VanessaC.
12 daughters- Claire, Clarine, Maisie, Weilin, Jolene, Marilyn, Yingyi, Yufang, Clare, Yisi, Georgina, Lee Jeen, Nerissa.
1 and only son- YongXuan.

-

(:

2010-06-29T20:33:00.003+08:00

♥243th post ; AWESOME dayy! :D

Hello peeeeeeeeeeps! (:
special thanks to MaeganSuAnLi for making my dayy today by pei wo go borrow tie!
sorry to waste your sms dearest babeh! I love you! (L)
you calmed me down when i was depressed today, awwh, why do i have such a greaaaaat twin? \m/
hahahs, thanks you VanessaGuppyLove, RachaelDaJieh and JocelyneSanJieh for making me LAUGH. :D
DarrenGoh, i super hate your irritating laughter during chinese lesson, a BOO for you(:
lessons carried on as usual, bored as normal. :X
completed all the projects except IPW, way to go our grp members!
Mr Lu is damn funny can, he's face look like an old man, but his lower body looks fine.
i found out that alot of people like Ms Tan MeiMei, yucks!
i think leave bad impression liao lorh, pratically laughing at everything he said.
twin says he's trying to aim our register numbers, but TOO BAD! ^^v
MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC ♥ tmr, for goodness sake! C:
happy luhs, ZhongHengDaBiZi, join us luhs, although you're highly impossible to see this. :')
another thing, translation programm was aweful to the max.
don't have any idea what WENG LAO SHI is talking about. :(
rahh, electricity is niceeeeeeee, I hearts this chapter, series and parallel circuit! yay! :D
history lesson was again awesome, but my hand is going to break off, writing all those notes. *cries.
oh oh oh and, how could i forget!
P.E (physical education) was torturing, wl, child abuse can! D: D:
and the moves are like so kukumalu, i wouldn't have survived without Maegan, Jocelyne and Rachael.
tmr got maths, awh awh awh, definately not good news.
sad luhs, need stay back somemore for whatever maths thingy. :(
okay, going lunch with VanessaSenior tmr, THANKS FOR YOUR TIE! I (L) you! (inserts hearts and smiles)
kthbye, thats all for now, bye!
& oh, I HAVE SELF ESTEEM! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

People like you, i'm not gonna let you spoil my good mood. Love ya! :V

2010-06-28T21:17:00.003+08:00

♥242th post ; They're bound to be conflicts between two trusted couples.

but, just take these as another life lesson taught, be optimistic.
even if you lose the whole world, you still have yourself, what's there to worry?
they key to friendship is quarrels anyway, i'm willing to give up things that are not meant to be.
i'll give whatever it takes just to make both happy,
although you mean more than anyone else in this world, I can't be selfish.
you don't belong to me, i was naive to think this way,
i thought i could keep you by my side when i give you my true love.
i'm prepared, just tell me so.
Life is cruel, they take back things, which you thought you could own forever, leaving you hurt, for life.
i'm happy with you around, are you?
i want and i need you to be, don't leave in regret.
I love you, lesser than tomorrow, more than yesterday.

5thJulyyy! :DDD

2010-06-26T22:11:00.004+08:00

♥241th post ; I LOVE BESTFRIENND THE MOST. (L) (L) (L)
had a super duper uber nice and long chat with ZiHuaaaaa, Love her ultimate most! (:
Keep Holding On & Runaway ; Bestf's recommendation! (Y)
I BOOK HER DURING SEPTEMBER HOLIDAY, don't snatch! :X
ell-ohh-vee-ee, miss her so much! D: D: D:
66months, 22days ; 04012005. ♥

2010-06-26T17:54:00.005+08:00

♥240th post ; Me #1 Precious Dearest Babeh Twin Love.
Forever & Always 1314 - 04012009,

Dedicated Specially to: Su AnLi Maegan ; TwinLove (L) (:
Thank you for all your support and encouragement these 18 months, 22 days.
You really stand deep deep deep down in my heart, and I can't imagine life without you.
I was doubtful of your true acceptance of me,
laughing at inappropriate times, smiling and suddenly giggling when looking at your face,
booing you from behind when you're not looking, never getting tired of my naggings at how messy your table is,
taking your time away from your family members and relative and always turning to you for help.
I was surprised at how well and positive you face them, others would have died.
These are all words from the bottom of my heart, those that I had wanted to say to you long time ago.
Thank you for given me chances again and again, putting my mistakes aside each time.
I am really glad and lucky to have you as my sister, even closer than a friend.
You really mean alot alot alot to me, don't ever doubt my love to you, okay?
Sometimes, a little ignorance is bliss.
As long as we have muture trust in each other, and perservere on till the last minute,
we'll be the envy of many in this world.
I love you! <3

2010-06-26T11:45:00.012+08:00

♥239th post ; 25062010' Awesomest. :D
will you catch me?
' I WANT SOME STICKY! I WANT SOME STICKY! I WANT SOME STICKY! '
okay, really craving for some now, rahh. :X
the store's quite far away though, no time to go there. :(
I shall go the next saturday! Wheeeee. :D

The photos I promised you'all! I (L)ove my Bestieee! :D

Tags Replied ;
Cheryl : Yeah! ;D see you too, thanks!
JunXiang : Thanks! (:
Geogina : Hey hey, linked you! ;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Pearl : Why, Hello! ;D
Jasmine : Hey, (L).
Maegan : Awh, I love you MOST! :D Be prepared for mondayyy!

The photos I owned you'all, my stupid com lag. :(
only managed to post one, the others all at facebook!
sweetheart. (L)

Have to rush to do geog proj, kthxbye.

2010-06-25T08:40:00.006+08:00

♥238th post ; OUTING WITH GLADYS.Y, Bestie! (:
Went to ehub with Gladys yesterday!
a pity ZiHua can't go, sad sad sad luhs! ):
bused there and went to book movie tickets for Karate Kid.
gave her a heart shape keychain i bought from malacca, glad she likes it! ;)
thanks to gladys, who have to give up some time of her BBQ to catch the movie with me. (L)
yeah, 4.10 movie, so went to whitesands to shop, haha!
had kfc there and walked around after that,
the arcade there was like super lousy, everything like so old. :(
wanted to take neoprints but decided to check it out at ehub. :D
so, went back to ehub all the way back, walking, yay!
talked about HDB flats. -.-" yu can call us lame(:
but that's the part we laughed like siao, really crazy!
bought 2 cute chocolate-coffe smell bear bear keaychains!
each took one, they're really cute, left 21 more sets only, wheee! ^^v
(Gladys wanted to buy the Hello Kitty one, and she still loves it, ahem!)
haha! then stoll back to arcade, thinking we still have alot of time.
topped up the card and went for two rounds of basketball!
failed to get to stage 3 the first time, but got it the second time!
got a credit play too, yippee! ;D
so, continued playing till 3.50 before rushing to take neoprints(:
shall wait till gladys scan me the photos before posting them.
bought popcorns and went into room no.5.
Karate Kid was awesomeeeee to the MAX! (L) (L) (L)
pretty toughing too, cried abit. D: rahh.
walked to the bus stp with gladys and she rushed to catch her bus to her friend's hse(:
took bus 3 home just on time to catch xwnds! (:
I (L) GLADYSYEOHAOJING ; ♥

2010-06-23T20:32:00.004+08:00

♥237th post ; Sweetheart. Sweetest addiction. :)

Hello guys, kind of lazy to post these few days...
well, mainly because i want to resist the temptation of blogging once school reopens.
but today is just so awesome i can't forget to post. :D
met up with sweetheart, LimHuiYan! (L)
was supposed to go Far east and Bugis together, but something cropped up at home last min. D:
sorry babe! went to Punggol Plaza instead(:
treated her to bubble tea, a pen and 2 hair clips!
hope she likes the presents. ;)
brought strawberry blended plus jelly, potato chips and went to the 2nd floor to have our talk.
then the guys there were too noisy, so changed plan and went to 4th story instead(:
CHRISTOFORI SCHOOL! I MISS MY PIANO. :(
okay, talked about our new life etc adn i laughed till stomachache. :X
waited for the shuttle bus with her while we camwhored alot.
rahh, will upload the photos before school reopens! ^^v
THANKS FOR THE AWESOME DAY SWEETHEART, I LOVE YOU! :DDD
need to chiong my homework le. :( Byes! x3

P.S/: 24062010, Bestiest, can't wait! (((:

I MISS MaeganSuAnLi. D: I Love my Twin(L).

2010-06-22T08:59:00.005+08:00

♥236th post ; AWESOMEEE DAY. :D

If we're meant to be, you'll always return to me ;
if we're not, i'll never be able to make you stay.
Tags Replied ;
>Vanessa: Okay okay sure, and now you're back safely, whoo! (L)OVED! :D
>Junice: HAHA, its saddening right? Haiix. :( Thanks for tagging! :D
>Jenna: Heehee, why skip? Its nice if you read the whole thing. (:
>Jeslin: Hey, don't cry! HAHA! ;)
>JiaYu: Okay okay, thanks dear! You too! (L)
>Darren: LOL, see i free first lorh. :P
>ESWL': Yeah, haha! No larh, where got?
>VanessaTYL: HAHAHAHA! Sorry larh, no free. :( i'll go fetch you when you return kks? (L) (L) (L)
>Gladys: HELLO(: okay, me misses you too! :( i'll go post!
>LipFei: Okay sure, thanks! (L) you too. :D
>SerWei: Npnp, thanks! (:
>Cheryl: Hey, thanks! See you soon! :D
>Junice: HEY! Thanks, SMILEEE. :)
>Maegan: HELLO HELLO THANKS! I LOVE YOU TOO! Yeah, was awesomeee with you! :D

Hello peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeps!
yesterday was fabulous, twin(L), Vanessa, Rachael and Jocelyne came my house for science proj(:
thank you joyjoy for your nice sweets you brought back from Australia! (L)
did some experiments below my block and then went to have lunchy with them at KFC.
maegan, vanessa and me ordered snackers while rachael and jocelyne went to pack chicken rice.
haha, talked about random stuffs and changed topic while seeing vanessa's library book. :') tskkk.
then twin and me went to future stationary to see kites, they're wonderful heh!
after that, all went to my house to continue documents for science, slacked while twin did most of the work. :P
did my history with REFERENCE from Rachael's, teehee ^^v
went to play hide and seek/sardine at my block, awesome i tell you! :D
then sent joyjoy back while playing at the small playground, crocodile and groundhog, they were superb! (Y)
after joyjoy went home, we went back to my house for twin's final destination 3 and cloudy! Wheeee~!
the movies were nice, but FD3 was gross, vanessa and i didn't dare to open our eyes. D:
but twin was brave, she saw everything, OMGAWD.
then Rachael had to go home, ahhh, sent her to the door(:
watched in horror and then bro joined us, eeew, the show grossed me out, but its seriously NICE! :D
cloudy with a chance of meatballs was great too, laughed all the way through.
then vanessa had to go home. :( rahh, sent her off and continued watching.
JELL-O! :D after the show ended, just in time for me and twin to check out XWNDS! yay!
it was nice, that episode, then went to have dinner with twin. :D
slouched back at the sofa afterwards, played with ah bum and camwhored with her.
took unglamorous pics. :X (which i was forbiddened to post them. )
haha, twin went home after Mr Bean. Teehee.
I (L) my Cliqueee! ♥

I'd rather be hurt by the truth, than be protected by a lie.

2010-06-21T09:11:00.007+08:00

♥235th post ; Wild Wild Wet! :D

Saw it at Marilyn's facebook page, meaningful.
The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, and caution lights called family. You will have flats called jobs.
But if you have a spare called determination, an engine called perseverance, insurance called faith, and a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called success.
- Philippians 4:13

♥HAPPY FATHERS' DAY! :DDD
wishing every daddy in this world happy ever after, laughoutloud. (:
Went Wild Wild Wet with my family yesterday to celebrate FATHERS' DAY!
gosh, it was AWESOMEEE! (: ♥
they added some new facilities there too, now the whole place look damn colourful.
okay, played with everything exept for the air-bicycle thingy. :(
rahh, no time luhs!
loveee the Ularlar(family ride) thing, it was fun!
someone almost drowned in the wave pool, then a lifeguard went to her rescue. :D
wheee, I loveee swimming. ^^v
the slides were entertaining enough too, hope they can be a million times longer!
hee, okay, have to go prepare for meeting twin and dajieh now, byes.
oh and I SUPER MISS SMSING TWIN. :(
oh and, WELCOME BACK, VANESSAAA! :D

i'm not gonna give up, why? because you're my friend, that's why.

5th JULY... :D

2010-06-19T19:19:00.006+08:00

♥234th post ; ARGHHH!
I freaking agreed with my mum to go cut my hair, rahh! D:
okay, it's not that bad, just too short, gosh, i look like a freak.
trimmed my long fringe too, not it's like at my eye level? Bleh.
grrrrrf, i'm not going to have long hair anymore, i think.
i'll just have it shoulder length till Sec 4, hmmm(:
that's all for now, a short update about my hair.
R.I.P ; G.YuFang's hair. :D

Homework ;
~~English Comprehension,English Book Review (1),English Book Review (2),~~English Essay,~~Maths Paper (1),~~Maths Paper (2),History
Projects ;
~~Georgraphy,Chinese,IPW,Maths,~~History,Science

Almost done. & my grandma's zong zi rocks socks. :DDD

I freaking miss MAEGANSUANLI. :(
22nd, can't wait!

2010-06-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

♥233th post ; 16062010-IPW proj & 17062010-Section Outing(:
hey earthlings, sorry for the late update, was too busy.

16062010 ;
went to have lunch at long john's with twinlove and isabel! :D
the fish and chicken there was quite nice, or rather i haven't eat it for more than a year?
reached there and waited for 15 mins or so before isabel reached.
called twin and decided on us dining first as she'll be a little late.
so yea, went to long john's due to cravings with isabel. :P
twin arrived around 20 mins later, boo! Teehee(:
munched on our food and saw HuiYan there, what a small world?
she was like "HELLO, YUFANG AH, HUIYAN ORH!" on the phone.
gosh, almost turned deaf. :X
then pei isabel and huiyan go to bits and pieces for piercing.
omgee, i can't believe huiyan's expression then, was like nothing happen like that? O.o
okay, bused to Vanessa's house afterwards.
missed a bus due to buying bubbletea, haha!
waited for twin while she chiong to cup walker and help me buy the bubble tea, heavenly~
chatted on the bus while keeping a lookout on waterfalls? :D Laughs.
sui bian pressed the bus-bell and asked the driver where is her condo.
rahh, we got lost, on a bus, how interesting...
then finally, saw Vanessa at the bus-stop, never been so happy, haha!(:
went to her house and started drooling over her piano. ^^v
played for awhile and went to check out her rooms, saw her mum on one of the photots,
look exactly like ms pey, maybe a little more gentle, i mean, alot. :X
the best part was the filming, it was awesomeee! rahh!
Maegan: Director.
Vanessa: Mummy.
Isabel: Meimei.
Me: JiehJieh.
haha, twin began on the script while the others get prepared.
its too long for me to describe, but its really FUNNY and cuteee!
roflmao, laughed till stomachache. T.T bleh!
i wished our classmates won't get to see my lousy filming. :X gahgah.
then put the videos into the computer while recalled on some funny parts. :D
done, homed.

17062010 ;
went to compass and meet the others for clarinet outing.
saw jolene, then yingyi, then chester arrived, followed by sarah, then marilyn, then isabella, then yonghao.
travelled to douby gauht and met weilin, claire and clare(:
played with yingyi's phone while on the MRT. :D
decided to go for the movie first, watched A-team, it was awesome, and fantabulous!
wheee, was cold in the cinema, everyone was freezing there. :(
shared popcorn and ice lemon tea with clare.
then, got out and discussed where to go.
went to kopitiam for salmon pepper lunched, shared with clare, claire and marilyn.
it tastes super nice, and the tray was heavy. (Y)
did not go as planned, yonghao, sarah, isabella and claire went home. D:
the rest went to pasir ris beach to emo?
didn't cycle at last, was too tired plus hungry,
went to ehub with jo, yyy, clare and chester, weilin and marilyn dinnered at whitesands.
ate "just asia", yingyi's recommendation, the most awesome meal! WOW.
free flow of drink and ice cream, although each just took one serving, besides chester.
laughed till siao luhs, i saw clare, then laughed, saw jo, then laughed, wth? :X
thank you yingyi for helping me pay part of the bill too, love you! ^^v
went home and chased after bus 3 afterwwards(:
day ended.

kthxbye, gtg for now, see you all at facebook. :D

(L) ; everyone who's worth to be.

2010-06-18T16:23:00.002+08:00

♥232th post ; Awesomeee day! :D
HuiYan Sweeetheart came to my house today! (:
wheeeee, haven't met each other for like very super long time since last year.
nah, actually saw her at compass point the day before.
ohh, and I received a friendship band from her too, it's really nice, love it. (L)
played piano together for like some time and I left her there alone. :P
checked out her awesome new phone, it's real cool!
Pachelbel's Canon in D rocks socks manzxc, love die it! Gosh!
okay, and that muddle head actually forgot to take home the score cheet I printed for her.
rahh, still claim she like it so much! tsk tskkk! :X
watched as my brother bullied her, like last time.
ohmygosh, it was really funny sia, they were practically chasing each other around.
and he was like using straws to attack her, roflmao.
haha. wanted her to stay longer, but she has to go home. D:
ate lunch with her at home and sent her to Punggol Plaza.
she bought a strawberry milk shake wil strawberry aleo vera(:
actually, she wanted to buy strawberry blended derh... ^^v
heehee, i'm out to seesiao her, wait she pekchek, okay better stop now(:
camwhored alot with her last minute.
gahgah, i'm so bored now, nothing to do at home. :X
pangsehed all my homework this time round, no mood to do them. :P
i still can't sms, wth!
thanks to twin, my phone still gets flooded everyday, thanks arh my dearest babeh lovely.
i want to watch final destination 3 with her, but i'm alr shocked when i saw the trailer.
ahhh, shall i or not, the rollarcoaster part, part 2 on youtube freaked me out le. :(
yucks, it was gross to the maximum.
but anyways, shall try watching it with twin on monday! (:
Bon Voyage Vanessa Guppy, must sms me when you're back! :D
I LOVE HUIYAN, sweeetheart! will post the pictures soon!

2010-06-18T09:09:00.011+08:00

♥231th post ; ME AND TWIN! 12062010! (L)

^idk why I uploaded it, oops.

First picture taken by ME at Plaza Sing! (((:

Honeydew Sago! (L)

Yummm, me and Maegan's(:

Awh, our gulp and sweets! ^^v

Wheee!

My sweets from Minitoons.

Waiting for twin's chili cheese fries! :P

I look like a les, gosh...

What's with twin's expression? :O

Wah, see, twin so happy. :D

Our SUPER CRAZY look! (:

When we see a cockroach?

My handphone pouch bhb. :D

Mmmm, twin's fries! (:

Our bags!

The carebear's CUTEEE! :D

What is it doing? Suntan? Maybe...

My sweets!

I wanna have a bite! :P

When we see Mdm Chow? :X

umm, our "Act cute" face? O.o

See, so focus on eating... haiix... :P

Aiyoh, fail luhs!

Heart hearts. (L)

My smiley face. :D

Twin's squidward face? (((:

I'm trying to get that burger...

Twin's head. :D

Okay, from here, my random pics(:

Are you going to give me, dearest twin? Nah. :(

I don't want liao luhs!

Our neoprints! (: took 2 rounds, addicted. gahgah!

Okay, thats all, the pictures I promised you guys, ESP twin! :D

byes! I love you all!

Tags replied at your own blogs this time round, lazy. :P

2010-06-15T14:39:00.004+08:00

A super touching story.
It's your lost if you don't want to read it. I cried after this. :(
http://universalbuddy.tripod.com/story.htm

Story What I Did For Love

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Part 1

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June 17, 1999

My name is MiNa Nam. I’m 19, still very young, but I am dying. Not right now but my life is slowly fading away as I’m writing my story. At this moment I’m sitting at ‘our’ spot. Mine and Eun Ji Won, the love of my life.

The sun is slowly beginning to set over the lake. I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My outside looks have changed drastically within the past few months, but the water reflected the true me. Inside I’m still the same person.

I have done and given so much for love but never once, have I received it back from Ji Won. There are times that I wanted to tell him everything that I’ve done for him and make him love me back. But I can’t. Love is not selfish.

So I did what felt right. I keep giving Ji Won my love and I never asked for his love in return. Even though I’ll leave this world pretty soon, my love for him will still remain. My story begins when I first met Ji Won six years ago on this one fateful day. It all started out….

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Part 2

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October 31, 1993

“You better come back here you good for nothing brat!”

I covered my ears with my palms. That was my stepmother calling me. Her voice sounds murderous and I didn’t want to face her today. She had slapped and hit me too much already. I’m afraid I can’t take it anymore so I hid in my closet. I peeked through the crack in my closet and saw my stepmom with a really pissed off look on her face. She was holding that stick that I’m always afraid of. I winced thinking about how much it would hurt if she hits me with it again.

I’m just thirteen and whoever said 13 was an unlucky number, they were right. My mom had died when I was just turning ten. Before she died she told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the world and how proud she was to be my mother. She said even though she’ll be gone, her love is with me always.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. ‘If you love me mommy, how can you be so selfish to leave me?’ So now when I had turn 13 my dad had married Mok Young A, who is my stepmom today. She was a cold-hearted woman who tortured me all day. Any self-esteem I had for myself was shattered and I was living a nightmare.

My closet door suddenly opened. “There you are you wicked girl!” My stepmom started cussing at me as she pulled me out and threw me onto the floor. I began to tremble because I knew what was going to happen next.

*Whack whack whack.*

I cried out in pain but I knew that no one is going to hear my cries. I desperately began to gasp for air. My heart was aching again. I couldn’t breathe.

“Not again! Don’t you see how much you’re costing your father and me with your heart problems? If it wasn’t for all these medical bills we wouldn’t be so poor now!”

I had this heart condition where air would suddenly shut off and I couldn’t breathe. The doctors are trying to save me by giving me a respirator and pills, but they’re not sure how much longer I’ll be able to live. My dad (who was a pathetic excuse for a man) came in.

He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes. He held my stepmom’s arm lightly and said, “I think she had enough. You don’t want her to have another attack. Calm down and let’s have dinner.”

“That’s why I’m hitting her!” she yelled. “She got detention and stayed after school for an hour. She was supposed to be home to go buy food for dinner and make it. Your daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something!”

“I didn’t get detention. The teacher wanted to talk to me about—“

But I was cut off by the whack of my stepmom’s stick. I cried silently in pain and turned away. I didn’t want to look at her. My dad said, “Well, dinner’s just going to be a little late today. Mina, say sorry to your mom.”

Despite the pain, I managed to say, “Sorry mom. Please forgive me.”

My dad handed me some money. “Here. Go buy food to make mee-yuk-gook tonight.” My stepmom’s temper simmered down a little as my dad lead her out of my room.

I picked up the money and headed for the store. Mr. Choi, the owner of Choi Food Market, shook his head as I walked in. He knew what kind of hell I was going through. I finished my shopping and checked out.

“That’ll be $3.49.”

“What?” I asked. “Umm…Mr. Choi. That’s impossible. With all this stuff it should be around $15.”

“I know Mina.” Mr. Choi gave me a sad smile. “The exact price is $14.32. Why don’t you keep the change for yourself?”

I opened my mouth in shock. “Mr. Choi…I..I can’t do that,” I said as I handed him 20.

He only took five. “No. Keep it. I know that stepmom of yours don’t give you any money.”

I looked up at Mr. Choi with tears in my eyes. Here he was, just a friend reaching out to me. I said thanks and headed for home.

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Part 3

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I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed the alley, a hand pulled me in. I was knocked to the ground and a shadow hovered over me. I began to scream but the same hand covered my mouth.

“Shut up or I’ll kill you!”

I shut my mouth instantly. I didn’t want to die yet. In the moon’s reflection I got a good look of my attacker. It was a boy who looked a little bit older than me. His face and clothes were dirty but he had really good features so I could tell he was extremely good-looking. But this was not a time to think about such things.

He held a table knife at my throat and said, “Give me all your money or I’ll kill you.” I panicked but I knew what to do. I used the move I wanted to use on my stepmom every time she pinned me down and hit me. I kicked him hard right into his family jewels. He gasped and fell to the floor, dropping the knife. I picked up my groceries and ran.

I guess you can call me the dumbest person alive. I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard and permanently damaged him. Besides, since my life is hell already, I didn’t want him to go through it too. So I turned back.

When I came back to the alley, the boy was still lying on the floor. He was moaning softly. I lifted him up gently. “Are you okay?” I asked. He shook his head no. “I’m sorry,” I said to him. I reached into my pocket and pulled the money Mr. Choi gave me. “If you need money, then here. All I have is ten dollars.”

I placed the money in his hand and walked away. He looked at me with this weird expression that I couldn’t read. I picked up my groceries and this time I left without turning back. I could tell the boy was watching me as I was walking away…

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Part 4

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Ji Won stared at the girl who had just walked away. ‘She must be the nicest or dumbest person in this world,’ he thought. He began to stand up but had to use the wall for balance. That girl had kicked him a little too hard. Ji Won had just run away from home again. He had ran away so many times that the alley was his second home. When he ran away he always stole his parents’ money.

They were the richest people in all of Hawaii but they were also the most messed up family. His dad would have a lot of women with him and would betray a friend if it would bring him money. His mom, on the other hand, was an exact duplicate of his dad. She always had these young men around her and spend money like crazy. His parents were divorced and lived on opposite ends of Hawaii. ‘Bitch and bastard,’ thought Ji Won.

When he ran away this time, he didn’t have the chance to steal any money from his dad. So he had no choice but to rob somebody. When he saw the young girl walking out of the store, she seemed to be the perfect target. But things didn’t turn out as planned.

Ji Won kept wondering why the girl gave him the money even though he could have killed her. Ji Won knew he couldn’t take the money because she was the first person in his messed up life that was nice to him because she wanted to be, not because she wanted something from him. He wanted to give the money back. When he gained some of his strength back, he began to chase her…

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Part 5

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When I came home, I was greeted by the usual words. ‘Ugly wretch, wicked girl, freeloader, etc.’ but luckily I made it through dinner fine. When dinner ended, my parents went to sleep leaving me with the dishes. I cleaned the table and washed the dishes. I also took out the trash and then suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind.

My attacker turned me around to face him. It was the same boy I met in the alley. I began to panic. “I gave you all my money already! What more do you want from me?” He raised a finger to his lips and tried to shush me. I felt one of my attacks coming on. I started to hyperventilate and couldn’t breathe. I was beginning to black out.

Ji Won looked at the girl who looked like she was going to die. “Oh my God! Are you okay?” This time it was the girl’s turn to shake her head no. Then she collapsed in his arms. Ji Won didn’t know what to do but he had to save her life. He began to give her mouth to mouth. “Come on,” he whispered to her. “Breathe. Don’t die on me.” After a while she began coughing and opened her eyes.

I opened my eyes and saw a blurry object heading towards me. Then I felt something soft pressing against my lips and I felt a gust of air. Then I realized the boy was giving me air. I couldn’t believe what was happening. I blushed and gently pushed him away. “Thank you for saving me. I’m okay now.”

The boy turned slightly red. “Uhh…you’re welcome. You kinda scared me there.”

“Sorry about that. Well, what is it that you want from me?”

“Here.” He handed me back the same ten dollars I had given him. I looked up at him. “No, it’s okay. Keep it. I think you need it or you wouldn’t have tried to rob me.” He shook his head. “No. I just wanted to borrow it only. I don’t take charity. Well, goodbye.”

Just as he walked away, I heard his stomach grumble. I bit my tongue so I wouldn’t laugh. Since he didn’t take charity, I said, “Um, hey. I just made some food and I don’t know if it’s good or not. I need a guinea pig because I don’t want to serve it to my parents if it isn’t and besides, you did save my life.

Ji Won looked at her. ‘Why is she being so nice to me?’ he thought. He knew she was just saying that because she heard him say he doesn’t want charity. Ji Won’s stomach was growling like crazy. He haven’t ate for 2 days already and the mention of food was killing him. “Uh, okay. I guess I’ll be your guinea pig since I have nothing to do.” He studied her face as she smiled at him. ‘She’s pretty,’ he thought as he smiled back.

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Part 6

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I let the boy wait outside as I got some of the leftover mee-yuk-gook for him. He finished it in less than a minute. Then he leaned back and sighed. Out of nowhere, he let out a burp. I had to giggle. He looked at me and smiled. “Sorry about that.”

“It’s okay.”

I hesitated before I asked him the next question. “Umm…so what’s your name?” He glanced at me and then stared at the ground. I could tell he was debating to tell me his real name or not. I didn’t want him to feel obligated to telling me his name. “It’s okay. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.”

Ji Won looked at her surprised. “No! It isn’t that!” he yelled. She stared back at him surprised too. Then he lowered his voice. “I’m sorry. Please don’t misunderstand.” She nodded her head slowly and Ji Won can tell that she was confused. Ji Won felt that he could trust her and he wanted her to be his friend.

“My name is Eun Ji Won and you are?”

“Nam Mi-Na, but call me Mina. It’s easier to remember.” Then she gave him the sweetest smile. Ji Won felt his heart beat a little faster when she smiled at him. He blushed and looks away. “So uh, how old are you?”

“13,” she replied. “And you Ji Wonee?”

He smiled when she called him that. “I’m 15,” he said turning back to look at her.

“15?” I asked in disbelief.

Ji Won nodded. “Where are your parents oppa? You’re too young to be living in the streets.” He shrugged his shoulders. “I can take care of myself.” I gave him a doubting look because he was trying to pull that tough guy act on me. “It’s okay though,” he told me. “I have a family. It’s just that things are bad at home so I’m just getting away from it for a while.” ‘So he ran away,’ I figured out.

I could tell that Ji Won was a good person. “Do you have a place to stay tonight?” He shook his head. “How about staying in my room then,” I offered.

Ji Won couldn’t believe his ears. He stared at Mina. ‘Did she just offer him a place to stay?’ “Ji Won?” Mina asked as she waved a hand in front of his face. “Are you okay?”

Ji Won shook his head and snapped out of it. She placed her hand on his knee. “Oppa, I asked if you want to stay in my room for tonight?” Ji Won was so touched that he felt his heartache. No one had ever cared about him so much but he didn’t want to feel as though he owed her. “No thanks.”

Mina looked at him with her big sad eyes. “Please oppa? I’m afraid of the dark.” Ji Won smiled. He knew she was lying so he would say yes. For the first time in his life, Ji Won felt warm inside because now he is wanted. He let out a sigh. “Aigo Mina, okay. You talked me into it. But just for tonight though.” She giggled and nodded.

“Okay.”

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Part 7

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Silently, I led Ji Won into my room. My room was small and luckily, it was far away from my parents so they can’t hear much. I let Ji Won have the bed while I take the floor. ‘Damn,’ I thought. ‘Why does the floor have to be so cold and hard?’

Ji Won stared down at Mina who was trying to sleep on the cold stone floor. He picked her up easily and lifted her onto the bed.

“Oppa? What are you doing?” I whispered as my eyes grew wide.

“Do you trust me?” he asked.

I nodded my head slowly.

“Good,” he said. “This bed is small but it’ll fit both of us.”

My eyes grew wider at what Ji Won had just said. But I had just told him that I trust him. I couldn’t take my words back so I had no choice but to sleep with him. We both got in my bed and slept side-by-side. I was so nervous, I couldn’t sleep. Ji Won, on the other hand, had no problem. He fell asleep instantly.

I turned my head over to look at him. His face was so innocent like an angel when he was sleeping. Who would have thought he was such a devil when he’s awake and moving?

An hour had passed and it was 3’ in the morning. I still couldn’t sleep. Suddenly something weird happen. Ji Won turned his entire body around and did a 360, kicking me. “Ow!” I cried out but covered my mouth so my parents wouldn’t hear me. When he was done, he had this happy look on his face.

At first I thought he was just playing with me but he really did do a 360 in his sleep. Suddenly he reached over and held me tight. My entire body went tense and rigid. I could feel Ji Won’s light breathing on my neck. I don’t know why but now that Ji Won was this close (practically laying on top of me) made me feel better. It’s probably cause I’ve never been this close to a person in a long time. Soon I began to fall asleep too…

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Part 8

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November 1, 1993

Ji Won opened his eyes and found himself laying partially on Mina’s body. He blushed and slowly moved away from her. Then he just laid near her watching her sleep. Suddenly it caught his eyes. The sleeves and pant legs of her pajamas were lifted up and he got a good look at her arms and legs. Dark purple bruises cover her entire body. There were several scars on her legs and arms too. Red lines run across her legs and it made Ji Won wince because it looked so painful.

He didn’t want to disturb Mina but he was really curious. She turned over and Ji Won lifted the back of her shirt. It was even worse than her legs. Ji Won opened his mouth lightly in shock and touched her bare back delicately, fearing that he might hurt her. Mina began to stir.

I rubbed my eyes and sat up. I saw Ji Won looking at me with this sad expression on his face. “What’s wrong oppa?” I asked. “Who did this to you?” Then he lifted the sleeve of my shirt. I opened my mouth in shock. I tried to hide it but I couldn’t believe he saw my bruises.

As I tried to answer him, I heard my stepmom’s footsteps heading towards my room. “Oppa!” I yelled, turning back to Ji Won, who was rubbing my bruises. “You have to get out of here! My mom is coming!” Ji Won looked at me surprised but I opened my window for him to climb out. “Climb down this tree. Goodbye Ji Wonee,” I said to him with tears in my eyes.

Ji Won remained silent the whole time as he left her room. But he didn’t leave though. He sat on the branch of her tree and looked through her window. He couldn’t hear what Mina and her mom were talking about but he saw it. He saw Mina’s mom bring out a small wooden stick and whack Mina with it several times. Ji Won couldn’t take it anymore. He busted back into Mina’s room.

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Part 9

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I looked up at my stepmother in pain. “I’m sorry mom. I didn’t know we’re supposed to have guests today.”

She glared at me with cold hatred in her eyes. “Mr. Eun, of the Eun Hotel Empire all over Hawaii, is coming to visit us. Your father might get a promotion if we make a good impression! You’re supposed to be awake half an hour ago to prepare all of us tea! Now Mr. Eun is down there expecting tea! What am I supposed to do now huh?”

My stepmom began to breathe rapidly as her anger increased. I saw her raise that stick of hers again. I curled myself up hoping the pain would lessen but I know it wouldn’t so I prepared myself for the strike…

Ji Won caught the stick just before it would hit Mina. Mina’s mother stared at Ji Won in surprise. Mina opened her eyes and stared at Ji Won in shock. He looked down at her. “Mina, are you okay?”

“Ji Won!” I screamed. “What are you doing here?”

Ji Won looked back at me. “I came to save you from this evil bitch.”

My stepmom twisted her face in hate. “I knew you were trouble all this time Mina. How dare you bring this boy home? Wait until I tell your father about this!” Ji Won grabbed my stepmom’s arm to stop her. “You do that and I’ll have you fired!” I stared at Ji Won dumbfounded. ‘What is he talking about?’

“What are you talking about you juvenile delinquent?!” snapped my stepmom.

“I mean,” said Ji Won glaring at her. “ That you’re having tea with my father right now and I’ll get you and your husband fired if you hit Mina one more time.” I look at Ji Won surprised. ‘Ji Won is the heir of the Eun Hotel Empire? His family is the richest in all of Hawaii!’

My stepmom looked at Ji Won doubtfully. “If you’re his son, then how come you’re so filthy?” Ji Won gave her a smirk. “I know you want proof. How about all of us go down there to talk to my dad?” My stepmom looked at him and thought, ‘This is the only way for real evidence. He might get us a promotion.’ Then she said, “Come on then, boy. Let’s go.”

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Part 10

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All three of us came downstairs together. Ji Won had to help me down because my legs were too weak to support me. Ji Won helped me sit on the couch and he faced the strange man before me. Mr. Eun glared at Ji Won.

“Hi dad,” said Ji Won.

“Where the hell have you been Ji Won?” shouted Mr. Eun.

My family just watched them yell at each other. Ji Won shrugged his shoulders. “Around.” It made Mr. Eun really mad but he never hits Ji Won. He continued yelling. Ji Won didn’t really listen and after a while he cut his dad off. “Look dad, shut up about it already and we’ll talk about it at home.”

‘Dang,’ I thought. ‘I could never talk to my parents like that.’ Mr. Eun shuts up. “Okay son, we’ll talk about it at home.” Then Ji Won gestured his hand at my entire family. “The Nams were nice enough to let me stay at their house. You owe them dad.” Mr. Eun nodded. “Fine. Joon and Young A, you two just got a raise.”

My stepmom got so excited. “Thank you Mr. Eun!”

“Come on Ji Won,” said Mr. Eun. “Let’s go home. And have that talk.” Ji Won brushed his dad’s hand ff his shoulder. “Later dad. I’ll be home in an hour.” His father glared at him. Ji Won glared back. “I said one hour.” Mr. Eun knew Ji Won was stubborn. So he agreed. “Fine then. One hour.”

After Mr. Eun left Ji Won talked to my parents. “Listen here,” he said as he sat down next to me. “I can get you hired and fired just like that.” And he snapped his fingers.

“We know, we know,” said my stepmom sweetly, pouring Ji Won some tea.

Ji Won didn’t drink it. “All I want is for you two to not touch Mina anymore. If I see another bruise on her, you know the consequences. Ji Won held my hand the entire time he spoke with my parents. I felt a strange warmth going through me and I knew that right then and there that I was falling in love with Eun Ji Won.

My dad remained quiet while my stepmother talked. “Of course Ji Won.”

Ji Won rolled his eyes. “Okay, and I’ll make sure you keep your promise.” Then Ji Won turned to face me. “Come on, let’s go.”

“What?” I asked confused.

“Go to my house with me.”

“Go go!” said my stepmom pushing me towards Ji Won. “Have fun kids and stay out as long as you like.” I knew my stepmom was really ticked off but she was playing it off pretty well.

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Part 11

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Ji Won continued holding my hand and never once did he let it go. The walk to his house took us 15 minutes and I was enjoying every minute of it. When we reached his house, Ji Won let out a sigh.

“Mina,” he said softly. “Just stay quiet and let me do the talking okay?” I nodded my head and we entered his house. His house was huge! I felt as though I’m a peasant walking through a castle. He even had a few maids and butlers who attended us. Ji Won led me to his room. It was nice and clean but there were a lot of holes all around his walls. I sat down on his bed as he went into the bathroom to take a quick shower. When he was done, he came out and sat next to me, holding my hand. I really am in love.

“Ji Won, how come your walls have a lot of holes?”

He shrugged his shoulders and I massaged it for him. As he relaxed, he answered me. “Oh, it’s cause I fight with my parents a lot so I take it out on the walls.” Judging by the holes, I can tell that he was really angry every time he made one. “Come on,” he said. He lifted me up on his back and gave me a piggyback ride downstairs. He smelled so good now that he’s clean and fresh.

His dad was waiting for him in the den. I waited outside while Ji Won came into face his dad. Ji Won came in, uninterested in what his dad had to say. “What is it dad?”

“Ji Won, son…this is getting to be very tiring. Every few weeks you would run away, leaving me and your mother worrying about you.”

Ji Won smirked. “Sure you’re worried. That’s why you’re out with those hoes and mom’s out with those morons. It’s because I’m your only son. You’re just scared that when grandpa passes away he won’t put our family on the will.”

His father got angry. “Well do you want it to end up on your uncle’s side?” Ji Won gave his dad a look that showed he didn’t care. His dad continued talking. “Since I managed to have a son and my brother have no kids, I have the advantage. Son, listen to me. You know you’re my heir. All my wealth will be pass down to you.”

Ji Won looked at his dad disgusted. “All you care about is money! You don’t care about me!” he yelled as he stormed out of the den. Ji Won slammed the door open and grabbed my hand. “Come on, let’s go.”

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Part 12

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I was confused and didn’t know what had happened. Ji Won held my hand and took me to the beach near his house. On the sand there were these 2 huge rocks. Ji Won led me over there. He lifted me up and we sat side by side. We remained silent until Ji Won took a deep breath of the ocean air.

“I love this place, don’t you?” he said to me smiling. I returned his smile and held onto his hand tighter. “Ji Won, what’s wrong?” Ji Won avoided my eyes. “Nothing.” I turned his chin to face me. “Come on, you know you can tell me.” He nodded.

“It’s my dad and this stupid feud he has with my uncle. They’re fighting over who will get the larger part in my grandpa’s will.”

“Oh…” I said softly.

“Isn’t it stupid?” he asked laughing. “My grandpa’s not even dead yet!”

I understood what was bothering him. So I didn’t say anything because I know he doesn’t want me to worry about it. He threw a rock into the ocean and it skipped three times. “Perfect” he said. “Why is it perfect?” I asked. “Age ain’t nothing but a number right?” he asked me, changing the subject. I thought about it for a while and nodded.

“Since I’m older than you by two years, that makes me your oppa,” Ji Won said to me.

“Yup,” I answered, smiling.

Ji Won smiled back. “I love you….”

I felt my heart my heart filled with a bubble of love but then Ji Won continued talking..”as a dongsang.” My bubble bursted. This was not what I had expected him to say.

I stared at Ji Won with wide eyes. I knew it was pretty forward of me but I had to ask. “Y…your….donsang?” I managed to stutter out. Ji Won looked back at me with his puppyish eyes and smiled. He nodded his head gently. Have I been reading all his signs wrong?

“So what do you say?” he asked. “Want to be my dongsang?” Even though it was breaking my heart, I had no choice but to agree. I nodded. “Yes, I want to be your dongsang oppa.”

“Good,” he said.

Ji Won nodded and reached into his pocket. He pulled out a small silver knife. I stared at him with wide eyes. “Ji Won, what are you going to do with that knife?” He asked, “Do you trust me Mina?” I nodded my head without hesitation. I trusted Ji Won with my whole heart. He smiled at me. “Good. Lower the back of your shirt.” Ji Won pulled the back of my shirt down. Then he used that knife to cut me. “Ow!” I screamed in pain but he continued anyways. He carved a small ‘E’ onto my shoulder blade. My back was bleeding and he bandaged it for me.

Then he handed the knife to me. “Here. Engrave your initial ‘M’ too cuz I don’t want to use the same last name as your mom.” My hand trembled as I held the knife. I didn’t want to hurt Ji Won. “Go ahead. Don’t worry, I can stand the pain.” I engraved an ‘M’ onto Ji Won’s back. I was surprised because he didn’t let a tear drop or cry out in pain. I bandaged him and he acted as if nothing had happen. When it was over, he held me close.

I held onto Ji Won tightly as if he was going to leave me. I know he only thinks of me as his little dongsang but it feels nice holding him like this.

As Ji Won held onto Mina, his smiling face instantly turned sad. He wanted to say ‘Mina, I love you as a girlfriend’ so she would be his forever but he couldn’t. He wasn’t the type to admit his feelings. So he figured the scarring was not an engravement of his brotherly love to Mina, but his promised symbol as a soulmate to her forever…

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Part 13

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Years had pass and I’m still with Ji Won. I didn’t think it was possible but I grew more and more in love with Ji Won everyday. We would do a lot of stuff together and we never had any fights. We argue, but it never came to the point where we would get really mad at each other and he usually let me have it my way.

Kang Sung Hoon was Ji Won’s other friend and he hangs out with us a lot too. Sung Hoon is a little older than me and is really nice. He has this really cute smile that when he smiles, you can’t help but smile back. I called him ‘bang geul ee.’ His family life also isn’t good. His dad is a drunk and his mom had passed away when he was young. So usually it was the three of us together.

My home life is a lot better thanks to Ji Won. My stepmom didn’t dare to touch me anymore and it’s still the same between me and my dad. We don’t talk much. Ji Won’s parents like me a lot too. It’s because when they tell Ji Won to do something and he wouldn’t do it. They would come to me. I’m kind of like their pawn. Life was heaven for me until it completely shattered on day.

It started out with good news but who would have known it would end up in tragedy?

June 15, 1996

My stepmom and dad came home one day from visiting the Euns. “Guess what?” my stepmom told me excitedly.

“What?” I asked calmly.

“The Euns are planning a wedding for you and Ji Won!”

I sat down because my knees gave out. This news hit me with total surprise but I was so happy to hear it because I’m so in love with Ji Won. “Really?” I asked excitedly? “How did this happened?”

“Mr. Eun wanted Ji Won to get married and he figured you’re the girl he should marry.”

“What did Ji Won say?” I had to ask. I didn’t want him to be forced into this.

“Of course he agreed,” she answered.

My breathing increased so I took out my respirator. After I calmed down, my stepmom took me into her room and told me all about the arrangements.

Meanwhile back at the Eun mansion…

“Just because you’re making this wedding for me and Mina doesn’t mean I owe you anything!” Ji Won yelled angrily at his dad.

Mr. Eun grabbed Ji Won by the collar of his shirt. “Ji Won! You listen to me. Once you and Mina get married, your grandpa will give you all of his businesses. Sharing part of it with your dad isn’t asking for much is it?” Ji Won pushed his dad away. He began to laugh. “The only two people grandpa will give the businesses to is me or uncle. He won’t give it to you because you’ll spend it all on those whores! I bet all your money is gone now.”

It was true. Mr. Eun was in serious debt and he needed Ji Won to get married because Ji Won’s grandpa was going to give Ji Won his inheritance once he gets married. Ji Won had just turned 18 and his dad had planned the marriage months ahead. His dad got on his knees. “Please son. Please do it for me.”

Ji Won rolled his eyes. “You’re so pathetic dad.” He sighed. Living with Mina taught him compassion and sympathy for people. “I’ll see what I can do dad.” He went into his room. Just then his cellular phone rang. He picked it up, thinking it was Mina. Using his sexy voice, he whispered, “Hi Mina.”

A weird high-pitched giggle came from the other end of the line.

“Ooh…”said the voice. “Hi to you too sexy.”

Ji Won rolled his eyes. “Oh shut up Sung Hoon.”

Using his real voice, Sung Hoon began to laugh out loud. “Gross hyung! That’s how you talk to Mina? Ew! It gives me the chills!”

“Hey Sung Hoon,” said Ji Won seriously. “Is everything set and ready to go?”

“Yeah hyung,” said Sung Hoon.

“Good,” said Ji Won, smiling. “Meet me at the docks tonight. From there we can sail to the mainland airport and get away from Hawaii to start a new life in Korea.”

“Yeah,” said Sung Hoon. “But did you tell Mina about it?”

“No,” answered Ji Won, sighing. “I’m afraid she won’t leave her family. I’m planning to just kidnap her and take her along. It’s easier that way and no hassle.”

“Right,” said Sung Hoon. “At least the three of us will still be together.”

“Yeah,” said Ji Won. “Meet you in an hour. Get everything ready. I got our money too.”

“Okay,” replied Sung Hoon.

“Bye.” Ji Won clicked off his phone. Ji Won’s dad didn’t know it but his grandpa had given him $10 million in advance, along with hotel ownerships in Korea and Hawaii as his wedding gift. He planned to leave his dad $5 million and live off the rest with Mina and Sung Hoon. He smiled thinking about how he would get away from everything and just be with the one he loved the most, Mina.

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Part 14

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Back at home I was so excited I couldn’t sleep. I know I was still young to be thinking about marriage but I know Ji Won is the only guy for me. I held my teddy bear close as thoughts of Ji Won drifted me to sleep.

It was midnight now. Ji Won snuck out of his house quietly without making a noise. He carried his backpack full of money on his back. He planned to go to Mina’s house to grab her and leave. Then it would be just him, Mina, and Sung Hoon leaving together. He was almost to Mina’s house when he realized that he was being followed.

It was his uncle’s men. They came to get rid of him. Ji Won was smart. He knew the streets too well. He made it through the alley and those men end up losing him. But when Ji Won reached Mina’s house, about 10 men had surrounded her house. They all saw him approaching. Ji Won began to ran as they chased him. He made it to the dock. He saw Sung Hoon on the boat.

“Hyung! Hurry! The boat is leaving!”

Ji Won threw his bag onto the boat first and made a high jump. He landed safely onto the boat. His uncle’s men couldn’t chase him anymore. Ji Won and Sung Hoon started cheering until Ji Won realized what was missing. Mina. He had left her. Ji Won fell to his knees.

“What’s wrong?” asked Sung Hoon.

“Mina! We left her! We have to go back!” yelled Ji Won.

Sung Hoon opened his mouth in shock because he just realized it too. Then he shook his head sadly. “We can’t. If we go back, we’ll just get killed and we’ll be putting Mina’s life in danger too.” Ji Won moved away from Sung Hoon, knowing that the darkness will cover his face. And for the first time in his life, Ji Won cried.

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Part 15

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I woke up the next morning with this strange feeling inside me. I don’t know why but I find it disturbing. Then I remembered that Ji Won and I are going to get married soon, it subsided. When I went downstairs, my stepmom was holding that wooden stick I haven’t seen in years. I began to panic. She whacked me with it. I fell down surprised.

“Where’s Ji Won?” she screamed at me.

I was so confused and surprised I didn’t know what she was talking about. She kept hitting me and telling me to answer her. But how can I answer when I don’t even know myself? Then something unusual happened. My dad grabbed the stick away from my stepmom.

“Stop hitting her! Can’t you tell that she can’t think straight through all that pain?”

My stepmom was shocked and she kept her mouth shut because my dad never did that to her before. “Mina,” my dad said to me, holding my hand. “Ji Won ran away from home again. He’s no longer in Hawaii and the wedding’s canceled.”

“He left?” I asked blankly.

My dad nodded his head sadly. “How can he leave me?” I asked standing up. My stepmom’s next words hit me hard and cold like ice.

“He probably left because he didn’t want to marry you.”

I sunk to my knees and fell to the floor. I began to sob to myself. My parents left the room, leaving me alone. ‘How can you leave me, Ji Won? Were all those promises of taking care of me lies?’ I loved Ji Won so much. All I ever wanted is to be with him, even if he did only consider me as a dongsang. I needed to know why he left. Being with him all this time, I knew where he went. I’ll search all of Korea if I had to…

One year later…

During this year, my life of hell had return. I managed to save up enough money for a ticket to Korea and money to spend. I had to work odd hours so my stepmom wouldn’t find out or she’ll take the money from me. I also had to sell some of Ji Won’s gifts to me. He was a really generous oppa who would buy me a lot of expensive clothes, jewelry, perfume, and just about anything that I wanted. I figured he wouldn’t mind because they’re just material possessions. They were a big help because I managed to trade them in for a lot of money.

July 24, 1997

I finally had enough money to leave. It took me a while to go because I knew chances are low of finding Ji Won right away. I needed extra money for my search and I had to pay double for a fake I.D. You could say that I have almost everything planned out. I got a pretty good amount so I planned on leaving today.

It’s been a little over a year since Ji Won left me with no reason or explanation. I’ve gotten so much thinner because I couldn’t eat or sleep and I miss him so much. The problem I still had facing me were my parents. I know they were not going to let me leave. I was only 17. Damn. Still a minor. This year had been total hell for me and I can’t stand another year of it. I had to leave and I had a plan. I was going to fake my death.

It was all so perfect. My family had to go out to a luau with Mr. Eun. He still keeps in touch with us. I guess it’s because he thinks I might know where Ji Won is. Truth is, I have no idea except I know Ji Won’s somewhere in Korea.

I planned to fake a drowning. Because of my heart failure, it helped me close off my air circulation for up to 4 minutes. This time I am using it to let my family think that I have drowned and the tides drifted my body to sea so I will never be found…

But before I go I had to say goodbye to my father. I hugged him hard. He looked at me surprised.

“What was that for?” he asked.

I shook my head. “It wasn’t for anything dad. I did it because I love you.”

My dad had tears in his eyes. “I’m so sorry Mina. I’m so worthless as your father.”

“No you’re not but you have to do what’s right dad. Don’t let anyone stop you and stop putting yourself down.”

He nodded his head. I hugged him for the last time. “I’m going for a swim okay?” He nodded his head and watched me head toward the ocean. The plan went perfect. I stayed underwater for a while and swam myself to the other side of the beach where they couldn’t see me. All my belongings were there. I got on the dock and sailed to the mainland airport leaving Hawaii forever…

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Part 16

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[Seoul, Korea]

July 26, 1997

Ji Won traced the ‘M’ scar on his back. ‘Damn,’ he thought. ‘I miss Mina so much.’ He sent out one of his men to retrieve news about her and if they could, get her here to him in Korea. Ji Won had it all. Money and power. The only thing that was missing was Mina. So much had happened to Ji Won as he remembered back.

Ji Won and Sung Hoon made it to Seoul, Korea. With Ji Won’s leadership skills and Sung Hoon’s smooth talking, they end up getting a lot of businesses and putting others of out business. Money was not enough for Ji Won. He needed power so he created Sechs Kies, where he was the leader and Sung Hoon was his 2nd-in command. He and Sung Hoon managed to eliminate the group Quiksilver on their own and gained the respect and loyalty of the two members Kim Jae Duc and Lee Jae Jin. Along the way, they found Ko Ji Yong and Jang Su Won wandering the streets. Ji Yong proved to be a genius and Su Won was handy in finding information.

Ji Won knew they were enough. They had hundreds of men under them but Sechskies were the main leaders with Ji Won as the head. They committed a lot of crimes but no evidence was ever found to convict them.

Just then there was a knock on his door, interrupting his thoughts.

“Come in,” said Ji Won.

Jang Su Won came in. “I have news for you, boss,” he said.

“Well what is it? What did you find out about Mina?” Ji Won asked.

Sun Won looked down and hesitated to reply. “I’m afraid it’s bad news.”

Those words made Ji Won panic. “Jang Su Won, you answer me now!” yelled Ji Won with rage.

Ji Won’s yell scared Su Won so he blurted it out. “Mina Nam is dead. She drowned while she was swimming in the ocean. Her body has not been found and is still missing.”

Ji Won fell back in his seat in shock. ‘Mina’s dead? No, anyone but Mina,’ he thought. Su Won knew it was a good time to leave so he left Ji Won in his office. “Mina!” Ji Won screamed out of his window in pain. His cries echoed throughout the city of Seoul.

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Part 17

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I finally made it to Chejudo, Korea. I didn’t know where to look for Ji Won so anywhere was fine. I was never a lucky person. I couldn’t find any signs of Ji Won there so I traveled to Inchun City. My search for Ji Won continued for another year. During that time I had traveled to many cities like Guam, Pusan, etc. It must have been a gift from God because one day my search was over…

November 21, 1998

I had just finish my overtime shift at the Nam Hotel. It was pretty ironic because my whole family spent their lives working for hotels and here is the biggest one in all of Seoul with our family name. I went into the worker’s lounge to take a break and pour myself some tea. I sat down and read the headlines.

‘Sechskies are to open a conference broadcasting live on Channel 6 today’

I rolled my eyes. Not them again. They were the notorious mafia lead by Matthew Eun. I shuddered. I can’t believe the leader has the same last name as my beloved Ji Won. Actually 6kies was composed of 6 leaders. They committed a lot of crimes and were always challenging the authorities. They had a lot of power and no one could take their pictures without their consent but a lot of people know what they look like. I didn’t care. I was too busy looking for Ji Won to notice them.

A worker with me named So Kyung Hee came in. “Hey,” she said, patting me lightly on the knee. “On break?” I took a sip and nodded. “Me too,” she said smiling. I smiled back at her. Kyung Hee was actually one of the nicest people at the hotel. Most of them were cold and just worried about how much tips they can get.

Kyung Hee picked up the TV remote and turned to Channel 6. “Hey Mina, there’s supposed to be showing 6kies today. Wonder what they look like.” I nodded and watched with her. When the clock struck 9, I felt my heart had stopped and it was not from my heart failure either. I stared at the face that was giving a cocky smile to the camera. Ji Won. Slowly the camera pulled out revealing the other 5 members.

I recognized Sung Hoon. He and Ji Won looked completely different but I still recognized them. Ji Won had his hair dyed completely blonde while Sung Hoon’s was streaked. Kyung Hee and I watched them in silence as they began to talk. Ji Won and the others introduced themselves. Then the camera showed directly at Ji Won.

To most people he would look like an evil gang leader but in my eyes he was a beautiful angel. If it was ever possible, Ji Won was even finer than before.

“Mina, are you okay?” asked Kyung Hee, as she waved a hand in front of my face.

“Huh?” I asked looking at her. “Oh, I’m fine. Just listening to what they have to say.”

I pointed to Ji Won on the screen. “Who is he?”

“That’s Matthew Eun,” she answered me.

I stared at Ji Won some more. He had change his name and so did Sung Hoon. No wonder I couldn’t find them.

Kyung Hee caught me staring so she smiled at me. “The leader is cute huh?”

I blushed. “Yeah.”

“Too bad in real life he’s such a jerk.”

“He is not!” I yelled at her.

Kyung Hee scooted her seat back in shock. I apologized right away. “Sorry Kyung Hee, I didn’t mean to yell at you.” She had a confused look on her face but she said, “Uh, it’s okay Mina.” I pulled a finger to my lips. “Shh…let’s listen to what they have to say…”

Ji Won began talking. “This is Sechkies speaking to all you losers out there watching us. We just want to say that we’re open to hire new ‘employees’. We usually travel around to our many hotels but you’ll find us if you have the right connections. Also a word to the police of Korea. Why are you picking on us?, “ Ji Won asked sarcastically. “We’re good, law-abiding citizens.” Ji Won folded his hands together and gave a little bow. Then all of the Sechskies leaders started laughing.

“Oh my gosh! Look at him!” yelled Kyung Hee and pointed to Sung Hoon on the T.V. screen. “Look at that stupid smile and that perverted laugh. Kekeke…” Kyung Hee made a poor impression of Sung Hoon’s laugh and it made me laugh. Geez, I thought. Sung Hoon would kill her if he knew she made fun of his trademark smile.

The show ended a little too soon for me but Ji Won did say he was visiting many hotels and mine is the biggest one. He has to come here. I went back to work and waited for him to come.

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Part 18

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Ji Won entered the main doors of the Nam Hotel and headed towards the lobby. He let out a sigh. Being in a hotel brought back to him a lot of memories. He remembered how he would take Mina to the hotels to trash it or slide down the long stairway banisters. But those carefree days are over. His only love had died and he no longer has the heart to love anyone else.

Eversince the news of Mina’s death, Ji Won began to develop a passion for anything he thinks is related to her. Things like her hairbrush, the same type of lipgloss she uses, her little respirator, etc. There are times when he had to give her mouth to mouth if the respirator wasn’t around. Ji Won smiled remembering that she had told him that he was her first kiss. Mina never went out with any guys so it made him really happy but he also found it very strange. He didn’t want to give her any ideas about dating other guys so he never asked.

Ji Won had changed his name to Matthew. It’s to symbolize that Ji Won died with Mina and Matthew replaced him. He chose the name Matthew because of Mina’s initial ‘M’ and if anyone asks, the ‘M’ stands for Matthew.

Sung Hoon wanted to changed his name to Ricky but Ji Won wouldn’t let him. Ji Won only allowed him to change it if it had the letter ‘M’ so Sung Hoon ended up changing it to Mickey instead.

“Hey hyung! Over here!” shouted Sung Hoon.

Ji Won looked over at his five friends. He walked over to them and was surprised at what he saw. “What the hell is this?” he asked angrily. Every single one of them had a girl in each arm. “What do you guys think you’re doing?” he asked as he strode over to them.

“Come on hyung,” said Jae Duc. “Lighten up.”

“Yeah,” said Jae Jin. “We worked hard all day and now let’s have a little fun.”

Ji Won rolled his eyes and then he saw two girls wrap their arms around him. He smiled. “Yeah, I guess.” “Alright!” they all shouted. They like it when Ji Won is in a good mood.

From where I was standing, I felt as though someone had stabbed me with a knife. Ji Won looked so happy with those 2 girls sitting on both sides of his lap. I stared at my reflection in the hotel mirror. Big, glassy eyes, pale skin, and waist-length black hair. I looked kind of like a ghost. Not much to look at, I thought sighing sadly. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder and I slowly turned around.

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Part 19

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“What are you looking at?” asked Kyung Hee.

Whew. I let out a sigh of relief. “They’re here,” I whispered to her.

“Who?” she asked, looking over my shoulder.

“SechsKies.”

“Oh. So you want to go serve them?” I shook my head ‘no’ quickly. Kyung Hee laughed. “Okay. Don’t get so worked up, Mina. I’ll do it.” She took a waitress pad and headed over to their table. I remained in the corner watching them.

“Hi, my name is Kyung Hee and I’ll be your waitress today. May I take your order?”

All the SechsKies members looked up to the pretty, young girl who just approached them. Instantly Sung Hoon made the 2 girls on his lap move. He looked up at Kyung Hee, giving her his best smile. “I don’t know what I want for dinner, but you want to be my dessert?” The other 5 Kies members laughed while Kyung Hee rolled her eyes. “That’s so cute. Must have took you all day to think up that one huh?”

“Ooh,” shouted Ji Yong. “This one has a mouth.”

Sung Hoon just smiled. “Feisty. I like it.”

Then he pinched Kyung Hee’s side playfully. She moved away, glaring. “Hey don’t touch me!”

“Come on babe. Go out with me. I’ll show you a good time.”

“Hell no!” Kyung Hee shouted back in his face.

Then Ji Won stood up. “Don’t talk to my friend like that,” he said in a low threatening voice. “Or else I’ll have you fired.” Ji Won’s glare made Kyung Hee move back a little bit but she answered back anyways. “You can’t fire me! I quit!”

She handed Jae Jin her apron and pad and stomped over to me in the dark corner. “Stupid, lousy jerks,” she whispered to me. “I know,” I whispered back, patting her shoulder. Suddenly, I caught Ji Won staring at me. I didn’t know what to say or do so I just left.

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Part 20

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Ji Won stared at the girl who was talking to Kyung Hee. ‘She looks like Mina,’ he thought. ‘But can’t be.’

“Hyung,” said Sung Hoon. “What are you looking at?”

“Her,” said Ji Won, pointing in Kyung Hee’s and Mina’s direction.

“You like my waitress too?” asked Sung Hoon, pouting.

“No,” said Ji Won, shaking his head. “Her friend. Doesn’t she look like Mina?”

Sung Hoon glanced at the person Ji Won was pointing to and watched her walk away. “No...” said Sung Hoon slowly. “That girl’s hair is much longer and Mina has a nicer body. That chick looks like a stick.”

Ji Won cocked an eyebrow at Sung Hoon. “How do you know Mina have a nice body?” Sung Hoon’s eyes widened. “I dunno… just guessing. Ji Yong’s calling me. I’ll go see what he wants,” Sung Hoon said quickly and ran over to Ji Yong right away. Ji Won began to chase the girl who just left.

I heard some footsteps following behind me. I quickly turned a corner and entered my room.

Ji Won ran after her as fast as he could. He saw the girl turn a corner and he continued chasing her. He saw a figure up ahead and he grabbed her by the shoulder. When the girl turned around, she had a surprised expression on her face.

“What do you want?”

Ji Won looked at the strange girl. She looked nothing like Mina. “Wrong person.” The girl walked way. Ji Won sighed. ‘Maybe it’s cause I miss Mina so much that I’m beginning to see her.’ He began to walk back to the lobby, disappointedly.

From my hotel room, I was watching Ji Won with the little hole in the door. I saw him pat a girl and then walk away with him head bowed down. I went over and sat down on my bed. I let out a sigh. Ji Won doesn’t miss me. He has too many girls with him already. He probably forgot who I am by now.

Tears fell down my face and I didn’t even realize it. I quickly wiped them away. I wanted to tell myself that I hate Ji Won but I couldn’t because then I’d just be lying. There was only one thing left for me to do.

I stood in front of my bathroom mirror. I can’t be with Ji Won as Mina, but I wanted to be by his side to watch over him. I thought about it for a while and remembered they were recruiting new members for Black Kies. I looked at myself. Hmm…if my hair is short and put into a cap, I wear sunglasses more, darken my skin with make-up, and lower my voice…I can pass for a guy.

So I did it. Within an hour, I had transformed myself into a guy. I checked myself over. As a guy, I didn’t look too bad. I smoothed out my new short hair and tucked it into a cap. Guys wear earrings too so I didn’t have to worry about my earring holes. I wore a couple of T-shirts under my flannel and 2 pairs of boxers under my baggy jeans so I would fill out more and wouldn’t look so scrawny. I checked my make-up, making sure I was well-covered. I put my sunglasses on. Perfect, I thought. Now all I have to do is have to pass the test to join the gang.

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Part 21

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Ji Won walked down the aisle looking at the 5 new candidates. He nod his head as he studied them. “Pretty good,” he said to them. “Alright,” he clapped his hands for attention. “All of you know how it’s done. Jae Jin and Jae Duc will jump each of you in. If you’re still standing after 5 minutes, then welcome to SechsKies.”

Only 2 of the 5 guys lasted when Jae Jin and Jae Duc were done beating them up. “Okay,” said Sung Hoon. The two newest members to join is—“ “Wait!” shouted a voice, interrupting Sung Hoon. Everyone looked over to see who it was.

Ji Won stared at the young boy who was walking towards them. ‘What the hell? Damn! This kid looks like Mina!’ he thought. ‘I must be losing it. How come I keep seeing her today?’ Sung Hoon looked at the new boy curiously. “Yes? What do you want little man?”

I looked at Sung Hoon. Gosh he developed an attitude, I thought. I took a deep breath. This is it. “I want to join SechsKies.” A guy I recognized as Jang Su Won busted out laughing. He placed his hand on top of my head. “You? How old are you boy? 15? !6? And how tall are you now? 5’?”

I moved his hand for him. “No. I’m 18 and I’m not 5’, I’m 5’3.” That made all the other members laugh, except Ji Won. I looked at him curiously and realized he was checking me out. Oh no, I thought. Please don’t recognize me.

Ji Won held up his hand for the others to stop laughing. “Hey, if he wants a chance, then we’ll give it to him.” Then he turned to face me. I felt my heart thumping loud and prayed he couldn’t hear it. He placed his hand on my shoulder. Dang, he smells good, I thought as I tried to suppress a smile.

“Look kid,” said Ji Won to me. “You have to be jumped in to join. These 2 guys (pointing to Jae Jin and Jae Duc) will kick the crap out of you for 5 minutes. If you’re still standing, you’re in.”

I nodded my head. I knew I had to last because I’m doing it all for Ji Won. I stood there as Jae Duc and Jae Jin began to hit me. Jae Jin threw the first punch and it gave me instant pain. He’s even stronger than my stepmom, I thought. Jae Duc kicked me and I was knocked to the ground but I kept pulling myself up.

Ji Won looked at the helpless boy who was struggling to stand up. He doesn’t understand why but when he looks at the boy, images of Mina replaced him. Right now in his eyes, it looked like it was Mina being beaten up by Jae Jin and Jae Duc. He couldn’t help it. “Stay down!” he yelled to the boy. Everyone stared at Ji Won. Both Jae Jin and Jae Duc stopped hitting the boy because they were surprised Ji Won was being nice out of nowhere.

I heard Ji Won yelling for me to stay down. My ears listened but my legs wouldn’t. I refused to stay down. No matter how many times they hit me or how hard, I managed to get up. Finally 5 minutes was over and I was still standing. “Am I in?” I asked in a weak voice. I saw Ji Won staring at me with a surprised expression. “Yes, you’re in.” he said patting my shoulder. I smiled and fainted into his arms.

Ji Won held the boy, surprised. He realized the boy had fainted. Usually he would have let go if someone fainted on him, but this time he held on tight.

The other 5 Kies members looked and the 2 new recruits looked at Ji Won with queeried eyes. “Uh, hyung,” said Sung Hoon, as he patted Ji Won on the shoulder. “What?” asked Ji Won, as he continued holding the boy.

“What should we do about the new recruits?”

“Give them instructions and show them to their rooms. We’ll have a meeting tomorrow.”

“Okay.”

They all left but once in a while, they all would glance back looking at Ji Won, who was carrying the boy in the other direction.

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Part 22

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Slowly I began to regain my consciousness and I woke up. I looked around and realized I was in the biggest room in the Nam Hotel. The Presidential Suite. “What am I doing in here?” I asked myself. Then suddenly the chair in front of me spun around. Ji Won was sitting in it. I stared at him with wide eyes. I started to panic because I was all alone with him in the room.

Ji Won gave me a sideways glance. “You okay?” he asked. I nodded my head. Ji Won got up out of his seat and walked towards me. He sat down on the bed next to me and looked at me straight in the eyes. “So what’s your name?” he asked. “Mi-“ I began but instantly cut myself off. ‘Stupid, I thought to myself. You almost said your real name!’ I saw Ji Won’s eyes grow wide.

“What did you say your name was?”

“Min-Sung,” I answered him quickly.

“Oh,” he said and backed away from me.

Ji Won stood up and walked towards the window, looking outside. He knew the new recruit was a boy but somewhere inside him wished MS would say his name was Mina. He let out a sigh. “There’s a meeting tomorrow. Be there okay?”

I looked at Ji Won with his back facing me. It had only been 2 years but I felt as though I couldn’t read what was going on in his mind anymore. I let out a sigh myself. “Ji Won, where do we meet later tomorrow?”

The call of his real name made Ji Won suddenly look up. He ran over to where Min Sung was sitting and grabbed him by his shoulders. “How do you know my real Korean name? No one knows me by that. Everyone calls me Matthew.”

Oh no, I thought. I had completely forgotten that Ji Won had change his name to Matthew but I thought fast. “I didn’t know your name as Ji Won. All I said was, ‘Gee, wanna go out later tomorrow?’” I felt Ji Won’s grip on me loosen. He had bought the story. When he was looking, I let out a sigh of relief.

‘I’m losing it,’ thought Ji Won. “We’ll meet in the main dining room tomorrow,” Ji Won told Min Sung. He nodded his head and left. Ji Won walked out to the balcony and looked up at the sky. “I love you Mina, that’s why it hurts so much that you’re not here.” But the real Mina had left before she could have heard those words.

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Part 23

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Meanwhile back in the hotel lobby…

After Sung Hoon and the others gave the new recruits instructions and about the meeting, they all went back to their rooms. “You think there’s something wrong with Matthew hyung?” asked Jae Jin. “Yeah,” said Jae Duc. “Did you see the way he held the new guy?” They began to shudder.

“No, it’s nothing,” answered Sung Hoon.

“You think maybe Matthew is gay?” asked Ji Yong.

“You’re the one who looks gay,” said Jae Duc, jokingly.

“Shut up!” yelled Ji Yong as he punched Jae Duc lightly.

The others began to laugh. Then Su Won said, “Could be though. I never saw him ‘be’ with a girl before.” Sung Hoon lets out a sigh. “Okay, I’ll tell you guys the real deal. But don’t let this get back to Matthew okay?” They all nodded and leaned forward to hear the story.

“It was like 5 years ago when Matthew hyung met this girl named Nam Mina….”

“She a babe?” asked Jae Duc, interrupting.

Sung Hoon gave him a look. “Yes, Duc-ee, she’s a babe.”

“Oh, okay,” said Jae Duc. “Continue.”

“Anyways, Matthew knew her before he met me. It turns out that she was the first person who ever really cared about him and Matthew fell in love with her. But you know how hyung is. He could never tell anyone exactly what’ s on his mind or how he feels. Instead of saying he wants Mina to be his girlfriend, he said he wants her to be his dongsang—“

“That’s stupid!” yelled Jae Duc, interrupting Sung Hoon. “Why he say that for? She’s a babe!”

“Sh..!” yelled Jae Jin, Ji Yong, and Su Won at Jae Duc.

Sung Hoon continued. “Well, Matthew ended up having this blood ceremony with her. They scarred each other’s back with their initial. It looks like a blood tie but later on I found out it was his symbol of promised love-“

“Ow..that must have hurt,” said Jae Duc, as he hugged himself. Jae Jin smacked him on the head for interrupting again.

“I think they knew each other for a year before they met me. At first I thought Mina was cute, but then by the way Matthew acts, I can tell she was off limits. See, Mina had this heart condition where air would suddenly be closed off and she couldn’t breathe. The only way to get air in was by this respirator—“

“The one hyung always carry?” asked Jae Duc.

“Yes Duc—ee,” said Sung Hoon, rolling his eyes. “Anyways, it was either that or mouth to mouth. Once when Matthew went collecting shells for Mina, I was walking along the shores with her. One of her attacks came on. I freaked out of course, but I knew what to do. I laid her down and I was about to give her CPR but then Matthew ran the speed of light and knocked me into the ocean and he gave her CPR.” The others started laughing.

“Dang, ain’t he a Romeo?” said Jae Duc, laughing.

Sung Hoon smiled. “It’s cause he loves Mina and didn’t want any other guy touching he. I mean, during school, if any guy talks about wanting to date her, Matthew made sure he didn’t. Oh yeah, Matthew hyung hasn’t always been Matthew. His real name is Ji Won. The ‘M’ scar on his back stands for Mina, not Matthew.” The others opened their mouths in shock. They never knew Ji Won had been this much in love before.

“How romantic,” whispered Jae Duc.

“Shut up hyung,” said Ji Yong. “Quit interrupting!”

“Okay, okay,” said Jae Duc, blocking himself from Jae Jin’s hand.

Sung Hoon began talking. “If there are no more interruptions, then I’ll continue.” He paused for a second and then continued. “The day before Matthew and I made it to Korea, he and Mina were supposed to get married. Matthew didn’t like his dad and there was this feud in their family on who gets the grandpa’s inheritance. Matthew got it, of course, and he took it all and left Hawaii. He took me and he was planning on taking Mina too. When he went to her house though, his uncle’s men were guarding the place and he couldn’t take her. He ended up leaving Hawaii without saying goodbye to Mina.” All of them remained silent.

Then Su Won spoke. “Last year hyung sent me out to get some news on Nam Mina. She had died drowning.”

Sung Hoon nodded. “Yeah but Matthew and I think she committed suicide. He think it’s because Mina can’t handle living with her stepmom, who always abuse her. If you ask me, I think Mina committed suicide because Matthew left her without any reason. I think hyung thinks that too but he won’t say it. I think he blames himself for her death and since then he hasn’t been the same. He used to be nicer and not this touchy. Also that’s why he’s never been with another girl. I mean, we see him flirt with other girls but none of us actually see him ‘be’ with another girl right?”

The others nodded in agreement. Sung Hoon continued. “About this new boy today. I think Matthew is losing it. He probably thinks when he sees the boy he is see—“ Sung Hoon stopped talking as he looked up. He finished his sentence with a “—See you later!” and he ran off.

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Part 24

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The others looked up surprised. Jae Jin smacked Jae Duc on his head. “What?” asked Jae Duc. “I didn’t interrupt!” “It’s not Duc-ee’s fault,” said Ji Yong. “Look.” Ji Yong pointed to where Sung Hoon ran off too.

“Aigo,” said Jae Jin. “It’s that same waitress babe.”

“See?” said Jae Duc. “It’s cause of a girl, not me. You hit me by mistake.”

“No, it’s not a mistake. I still wanna smack your head cause it makes this cool hollow sound,” replied Jae Jin as he smacked Jae Duc on his head again.

“So, wanna go out sometime?” Sung Hoon asked Kyung Hee, leaning near her. She rolled her eyes at him.

She answered flatly, “No” and began to leave.

Sung Hoon held onto her arm. “Come on babe. X-mas is next month and don’t be a scrooge.”

Then suddenly, Kyung Hee gave him a seductive smile. “I guess. How about we go out on November 31 then?”

Sung Hoon gave her a sexy smile back. “It’s a date then,” he answered, letting her go. The other 4 walked up to him.

“How’d it go Mickey?” asked Su Won.

“Hey, hey, what can I say?” answered Sung Hoon cockily. “I’m the man!”

Jae Jin gave him a high-five.

“Alright!” yelled Jae Duc. “When you 2 going out?”

“November 31,” answered Sung Hoon.

“Uh, Mickey,” said Ji Yong.

“Sup Ji Yong?” said Sung Hoon.

“November doesn’t have a 31st.”

“What?” asked Sung Hoon surprised. He looked at the calendar. November ended on the 30th. He looked around but Kyung Hee had already left. He started cursing while the others tried to hold back their laughter.

November 23, 1998

“This meeting of SechsKies is now in session,” announced Ji Won to the main members of the group, along with the new recruits. His voice got their attention and they quickly focused their attention on Ji Won. Ji Won looked to see if Min Sung was there. He was. Ji Won gave a little smile to him. He didn’t know why but when he looks at Min Sung his mind would replace Min Sung’s face with Mina’s.

“So any new business?” he asked the members.

“Yes,” answered Jae Jin. “The Black Dragons have killed some of our members and took away some of our businesses.”

“Damn it!” yelled Ji Won as he pounded his fist on the table. “We’ll just have to see that this Black Dragon matter will be solved. Mickey you, Ji Yong, Su Won, and the 2 new recruits deal with the businesses. Jae Jin, Jae Duc, and Min Sung will come with me.” Everyone looked at Ji Won strangely.

Sung Hoon began to speak. “Uh, hyung. You want to take Min Sung along?”

Ji Won glared at him. “Yeah. Anyone here have any objections?” No one answered. “Meeting adjourned,” announced Ji Won and everyone went to work.

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Part 25

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I followed the Black Kies to a dark alley. I was surprised Ji Won wanted to take me along, considering I was one of the weakest members. I thought I would get to work with the White Kies in businesses.

“Hey kid,” said Jae Duc to me.

“What is it?”

He handed me a gun. “Use this to protect yourself.”

My eyes widened as I held the cold metal. Please don’t let me use it, I prayed silently.

Ji Won walked over to Min Sung. “Okay, the coleaders of Black Dragons are meeting around here. You’ll recognize them by the dragon tattoos on their arms. If you see them, just shoot them as they come out.”

“But Matthew hyung, I—“ but my words were cut off the sound of gunshots.

POW

“Get down!” yelled Ji Won as he covered me. Then he started firing. I covered my ears and watched Ji Won in disbelief. He had shot 4 people and killed 3. Ji Won stood up smiling. I couldn’t believe it. I was in love with a cold-blooded killer. Jae Jin and Jae Duc killed some other members and JW told them to kill every single Black Dragon member.

One Black Dragon member laid hurt on the ground. Ji Won pulled him up by the collar of his shirt and pointed a gun to his head. “Tell me who’s your leader punk or else I’ll blow your brains out.”

The young boy was whimpering. I felt sorry for him. “Please don’t kill me. My leader is Eun Tae Won.” “Who the hell is that?” asked Ji Won angrily. “What the hell does he have against me?” “He’s the godson of Mr. Eun, who’s one of the heirs of the Eun Hotel Empire and he came to get the inheritance back from you.”

I listened to what the boy was saying. I never knew that Ji Won’s uncle had a god son. From what I had heard, Ji Won’s uncle had passed away 2 months ago and he had a heir. The heir is the leader of Black Dragon, I figured out.

“That bastard,” said Ji Won. “He’s dead and he still has someone after me.” When Ji Won wasn’t looking, the Black Dragon boy had pulled out a knife, ready to stab Ji Won. I didn’t have time to think so I reacted instantly. I shot the boy. He fell back in pain but managed to get up and run away.

Ji Won looked at me surprised. He gave me a smile. “Good job, Min Sung,” he said walking over to me and patted me on the back. I was appalled at what I had done. I couldn’t answer him so I just handed him back the gun.

Just then Jae Jin and Jae Duc came back to us. “Got them all hyung,” said Jae Jin smiling as he did fancy handwork with his gun.

“Good,” said Ji Won. “Min Sung here just saved my life. I knew it was a good idea to bring him along.”

“Really?” asked Jae Duc. “Nice work kid.” Then he punched me lightly on the shoulder.

When we made it back to the hotel, I ran into my room using my respirator and swallowed a pill. Afterwards, I took a shower. I felt so dirty because what I had done. I knew this was going to be only one of the many dirty work I would have to do to stay with Ji Won.

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Part 26

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A few months later…

During this time, since I saved Ji Won’s life, he began to trust me more and confided in me with everything. I was like his new best friend. SechsKies continued traveling to many places and recruited new members. More war between SechsKies and Black Dragons broke out. Many businesses were shut down and more members were killed from both sides. All the blood shed and fighting was getting to me but I held on. All the members of SechsKies accepted me but sometimes I overhear them whisper that I’m gay. I didn’t care as long as I had Ji Won.

April 30, 1999

Finally, after many days of hard work, SechsKies finally got a day of rest. The leaders always hang out together but Ji Won always included me. We were at this fancy restaurant and were all having a good time. Jae Duc was telling us funny jokes. He stopped in the middle of a joke as he saw the Black Dragon leaders enter the restaurant.

Tension was felt by everyone. The Black Dragons sat down across from us. Ji Won and Tae Won were giving each other glares. Underneath the tables, we pulled out our guns. I knew the Black Dragons were doing the same. We didn’t know which side fired the first shot but before we knew it, bullets were flying everywhere.

Ji Won covered me as we ran out of the restaurant safely. We met up with the other 5 Kies in a dark alley. The Black Dragons were still chasing us.

“Damn it hyung! What should we do?” asked Jae Jin.

“Kill them all!” shouted Ji Won.

“There are too many,” Ji Yong shouted back. “Let’s just hide out in this motel.” We all ran and hid in this cheap motel’s restaurant. The Black Dragons lost us and continued searching.

“I don’t believe this!” said Ji Won furiously. “I, Matthew Eun, of SechsKies have to hide down here in this cockroach motel like I’m a dog or something!”

“Calm down,” I said to him gently, patting his back. “It’s not so bad.”

“Yeah hyung,” said Sung Hoon. “It’s only for one night. Besides, we’ll make them pay for this.”

All of us looked around. There was only one bed. I could tell none of us wanted the floor because it was disgusting and reeked of something. “I ain’t taking the floor!” all of us shouted in unison.

“There’s only one bed though,” said Su Won.

“Look on the bright side,” said Jae Duc as he laid out the sheets on the bed. “At least it’s king size.”

I nodded my head. “It’ll be tight but we’ll all have to try and fit in.”

Soon it was Jae Jin, Jae Duc, Ji Won, me, Sung Hoon, Ji Yong, and Su Won laying down side by side uncomfortably on the bed. We were laying down one by one and the others looked at me strangely as I ran to be the next person who laid near Ji Won.

Soon everyone fell asleep except me. I made sure everyone was asleep before I made my move. I bent over to kiss Ji Won lightly on the lips. Then I laid my head down on his chest to hear his heart beat. I sighed contentedly.

Then suddenly I felt Ji Won’s leg twitch. Oh no. I knew what he was about to do. His 360. I placed my entire body on top of his because I didn’t want to get kicked. As Ji Won did his 360, he kicked everyone except me off the bed. As always when Ji Won was done, he had a huge smile on his face. Then he held onto me tightly. I was overwhelmed with happiness.

The others must have been exhausted because none of them woke up except Jae Duc. He opened his eyes sleepily and said, “Huh?” “You’re dreaming,” I whispered to him. He nodded his head and went back to sleep. Soon I drifted off to sleep too.

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Part 27

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Next Morning…

May 1, 1999

Ji Won began to stir. He woke up finding Min Sung holding onto him tightly. Ji Won widened his eyes and gently unraveled Min Sung’s arms and legs off of him. The guys already called Min Sung gay and he didn’t want them to think he’s gay too. He sat up and saw 5 of the SechsKies leaders laying on the floor.

Then Sung Hoon began to wake up. He sat up and looked around. “Gross! How the hell did I end up down here?” Ji Won shrugged his shoulders. Then Jae Duc woke up. “Damn, my butt hurts. It feels like someone kicked it last night.” Then one by one everyone woke up. “P.U.!,” yelled Jae Jin. “This floor stinks!” Everyone started laughing.

“Sorry you guys,” said Ji Won laughing. “I must have done a 360 and kicked you all off.”

“How come you didn’t fall off Min Sung?” asked Ji Yong.

Uh, oh, I thought. “I did,” I answered him. “But I got back up and went to sleep on the bed again.”

“Really?” asked Su Won. “I didn’t even know. I just went right on sleeping.”

Ji Won began to study Min Sung. It was weird but somehow Ji Won had a feeling that Min Sung knew he does a 360 in his sleep. ‘But that’s impossible,’ he thought to himself. ‘Only Mina knows that and why didn’t Min Sung say anything about me kicking him?’ Ji Won didn’t know what was going on with Min Sung but he knew he had to find out.

We all got up and ready to leave the room. The coast seemed clear so we walked out unarmed. Big mistake. There was a n ambush waiting for us. “Disperse!” yelled Ji Won and we all ran our separate ways. Black Dragons chased after each one of us. I lost the Black Dragon member that was chasing me but I didn’t want to go back the hotel room without Ji Won so I turned back to get him.

When I found Ji Won, he was backed up against the wall by a Black Dragon. It was the leader, Tae Won. He was telling Ji Won to bow down and beg for mercy but Ji Won ended up spitting in his face. Tae Won got angry and pulled the knife back to stab Ji Won in his throat. I ran as fast as I could and knocked Tae Won down. He dropped the knife and fell to the floor with me. As he fell, he used the handled of the knife to knock Ji Won unconscious. Tae Won got up glaring at me.

“Do you know who you’re messing with?” he asked me angrily.

I glared at him back unflinching. “I’ll make you pay for hurting Ji Won.”

“Oh you must be the gay SechsKies member I’ve heard so much about,” said Tae Won laughing. “You’re afraid your faggot leader would die leaving you alone?”

That made me really angry. I didn’t care that he called me gay but calling Ji Won a faggot ticked me off. Since he was distracted, I grabbed the hand he was holding the sword with, and made him stab himself. He cried out in shock and pain. He pulled knife out of him. Tae Won pushed me away and cuts me in the knee with his knife. I fell down and saw him raise the knife above my head. I was going to die.

Then suddenly a voice screamed out, “Gang Rape!”

It made Tae Won run off. I looked over to see who it was. It was Kyung Hee screaming for the cops. I saw her looking at me sighing and walked away.

“Kyung Hee!” I screamed for her.

Kyung Hee looked at me strangely as she approached me. “Do I know you?”

I nodded my head and motioned for her to come near me. When she did, I whispered in her ear, “It’s me, Mina.”

“Mina? But you’re a guy!” she yelled back at me.

“Look at me closely.”

When she did, her eyes widened as she grabbed a hold of me. “Mina, it is you!” I turned her back to face me. “Please help me bring Ji Won back to the hotel.” Kyung Hee made a face of disgust.

“What are you doing with the SechsKies leader and why are you dressed like a guy?”

“I’ll explain later,” I told her. We both put Ji Won’s arms around us as we carried him back. Along the way we found Sung Hoon unconscious on the ground, bleeding. I set Ji Won down gently and lifted Sung Hoon up. “Sung Hoon!” I said, shaking him. He was hurt badly. “Kyung Hee, please do me a favor. You carry Sung Hoon while I carry Ji Won.”

Kyung Hee looked at me reluctantly but then nodded. I lifted Ji Won onto my back and carried him back to the Nam Hotel. My leg was still bleeding from the cut and I was limping. “Mina, can you carry him?” Kyung Hee asked me, concerned. “I’ll be fine,” I answered her as we made it back.

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Part 28

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I took Ji Won back to his room while Kyung Hee took Sung Hoon back to his. I washed Ji Won’s cuts and nursed his wounds. When he was bandaged, I sat down on the chair next to his bed.

Then suddenly, I couldn’t breathe. One of my attacks is coming on and I didn’t have my respirator with me. My heart was aching so painfully that I was gasping in pain. But then I remembered Ji Won had a respirator. I searched his pockets and sure enough, there it was. I started pumping it quickly and air entered my lungs.

My vision cleared and I began to breathe easier. Then I put it back into his pocket. My touch made Ji Won stir. He began to wake up. He looked at me.

“Min Sung?” he asked weakly.

I nodded my head. “Yes, it’s me hyung.”

Ji Won lifted himself up. “Where am I?”

“We’re back at our hotel.”

“Oh,” Ji Won said as he looked at my leg. “What happened to your knee?”

I looked down at it. It was bleeding through my pants. “It’s nothing hyung. I’ll be okay in a few days.”

“Did Tae Won do this to you?”

I nodded my head.

Ji Won pounded his fist on his desk. “Damn him! I’ll get him back.”

“It’s okay hyung,” I said calming him down.

“By the way,” he asked me suddenly, “how did you end up finding me? Weren’t you supposed to come back here by yourself?”

His question hit me by surprise. I answered him truthfully. “I came back to look for you because I was worried you might be in danger.” I saw Ji Won look at me awkwardly and inched himself away from me. He thinks I’m gay, I thought.

“Uh, thanks for coming back to save me then,” Ji Won said to Min Sung awkwardly. Min Sung nodded and left his room. Ji Won lets out a sigh. He loved Min Sung as a friend and definitely nothing more. He didn’t want Min Sung to have any thoughts.

Instinctively Ji Won reached into his pocket to check to see if his respirator was still there. It was but it was different. Ji Won stared at it with wide eyes. His once filled respirator was now only half full with air. Someone had been using it.

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Part 29

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Later that evening Ji Won posted a note on my door telling me to meet him. It was 8 p.m. and I knocked the door to his room. “Come in,” said Ji Won. I entered his room, not knowing what he was going to say. “Follow me,” he ordered. He left the room and I followed him.

He took me to the beach that was near our hotel. Then he walked over to a spot where there were two rocks side by side. I caught my breath. This looks exactly like our spot in Hawaii, I thought. “Come here and sit next to me, Min Sung,” said Ji Won to me, patting the rock next to him. I sat down near him and closed my eyes as I breathed in the salty sea air.

Ji Won began to study Min Sung. ‘He looks like Mina in a way,’ he thought. ‘Could he be Mina in another form?’ Ji Won didn’t believe in reincarnation but Min Sung was too much like Mina for him. He wanted to see if somehow Min Sung was Mina so he had to test him. “Min Sung, you want to hear a story?”

“Sure,” said Min Sung eagerly.

Ji Won smiled as he told his story. “There once was this rich boy who came from a messed up family. He had no friends at all. Then one day he met this little girl who became his friend. She was really nice to him, unlike his family, so he began to adopt her as his dongsang.” Ji Won paused right there to see Min Sung’s reaction.

My smile faded when Ji Won began his story. He was talking about our life in Hawaii. Then I figured out he was testing me. The respirator, I thought. I must have drained it when I was using it so now he suspects me. I steadied myself and tried my best to give no reaction.

Ji Won stared at Min Sung, who appeared to have no reaction to the story. “Well what do you think?” Ji Won asked him. “That’s a cute story, hyung,” he said, shrugging his shoulders. Ji Won continued. “Do you know why he took extra care of his dongsang?” Min Sung shook his head no. “It’s because she has this heart problem and needed this respirator to breathe.” He took out the respirator from his pocket and showed it to Min Sung. Again no reaction.

“Poor girl,” said Min Sung.

“Yes, poor girl,” said Ji Won sadly. “She died a few years later.”

I looked at Ji Won sadly. I knew Ji Won felt bad because of my death but since I’m no one special to him, it wouldn’t matter if he knew the truth that Mina was still alive and with him right now. Then Ji Won took out a stone and handed me one. I rubbed the white marble stone for a while. “Throw it,” he told me. I shook my head no. To me it was like a present so I didn’t throw it but just kept it in my pocket. Ji Won threw his into the ocean. It skipped 3 times.

“Perfect,” he said.

“Why is it perfect?” I asked him.

This time I wished he would tell me the significance of the 3-skip. “When the stone skips 3 times, it means 3 words. I love you.” I looked at Ji Won in an overwhelming joy. Did Ji Won love me? He had thrown the rock and it skipped 3 times many times before. “So did the rich boy ever really loved his dongsang?” I asked Ji Won. Ji Won looked at me. “Of course he does. He has a lot of brotherly love for her.” “Oh,” I whispered softly. My heart began to ache.

As Ji Won continued staring at the ocean, I began to walk home with a heavy heart. Ji Won began to shake his head. ‘Mina’s dead already so why am I denying that I love her?’ he thought to himself as he stared out to the ocean. “Actually, Min Sung, the rich boy loved his dongsang the first day he met her but he’s such a weak person. He never could admit his feelings for her and just waited for her to say that she loves him first.”

Ji Won turned around and saw that Min Sung had left. ‘Oh well,’ he thought as he headed back to the hotel.

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Part 30

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*Since some of you wanted to hear more about Sung Hoon and Kyung Hee, this chapter is a little side story.

Sung Hoon woke up aching. He realized he was back at the Nam Hotel and in his room. “How did I make it back here?” he asked himself. Then he realized he was wearing nothing but his boxers. His bathroom door suddenly opened and out came Kyung Hee. “Hey!” he shouted as he pulled a blanket over to cover himself.

Kyung Hee rolled her eyes. “It’s too late for that. I’ve seen it all already,” she told him as she yanked the blanket away.

Sung Hoon crossed his arms over his chest. “So you took advantage of me in my weak state?”

“So what if I did?” she snapped at him.

“That means you have to marry me and support me while I give birth to your child.” Kyung Hee could’t help but laugh.

Sung Hoon smiled at her. ‘I guess he isn’t so bad,’ she thought. “You know,” said Sung Hoon quietly. “You didn’t have to diss me like that when you said you’ll go out with me.” Kyung Hee looked at him.

“I had to! You were such an arrogant jerk and you wouldn’t leave me alone.”

“Maybe it’s because I like you too much to leave you alone,” he replied back.

Kyung Hee blushed a little and decided to change the subject. “Give me your arm,” she said to him. Sung Hoon’s right arm was bleeding and Kyung Hee began to wash the cut.

“Ow!” he yelled in pain, pulling his arm back. “That hurts.”

“Does it?” Kyung Hee asked him, concerned. “I’m sorry.”

She leaned over to blow on his cut. Sung Hoon stared at her the entire time. He felt warm and shy being around her. He never felt this way for a girl before. She was nice to him and not dissing him like she usually does. He really liked that feeling. Kyung Hee gently placed his arm into a cast.

“There,” she said. “All better.”

“You know,” said Sung Hoon softly. “Everyone says kisses make boo-boos feel better and go away.”

When Kyung Hee was nursing Sung Hoon, she developed a liking for him and his nice body was a good addition. “Really?” she asked skeptically. “I don’t believe you.”

“Why don’t you test it out then?” he challenged her smiling.

“Maybe I will,” she said, flirting back. “Where does it hurt?”

Sung Hoon pointed to his knee. Kyung Hee kissed it. Then he pointed to his hand. She kissed it too. Slowly he pointed to his forehead, which she also kissed. He worked his way down to his nose. Kyung Hee couldn’t help but laugh as she kissed his nose lightly. Sung Hoon’s nose was broken.

Then he pointed to his lips. Kyung Hee was about to kiss it lightly but then Sung Hoon held onto her tightly to deepen the kiss. Kyung Hee felt drawn to him so she didn’t push him away. He turned her over so she laid down on his bed, with him on top of her. His hand went under the back of her shirt and he stopped there. Kyung Hee continued kissing him and ran her fingers through his hair. Since she wasn’t stopping him, he was about to continue when…

*knock knock*

‘I’m going to kill that person,’ thought Sung Hoon as he broke off the kiss. “Yeah? What is it?” he yelled.

“Matthew wants all of us to go down to the dining room for a meeting,” said Ji Yong.

“Okay, I’ll be there in 5 minutes!” Sung Hoon yelled back. When he heard footsteps of Ji Yong leaving, he kissed Kyung Hee once more. “Sorry honey, I have to go but I’ll be right back.” Kyung Hee nodded and helped him into his clothes.

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Part 31

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“Order SechsKies!” yelled Ji Won.

“Ooh, ooh,” said Jae Duc. “I want some kimbab!”

Ji Won glared at him. Jae Duc shuts up. “Now I want to talk to all of you about Min Sung. He’s only been here for a few months but he had saved my life twice and not to mention, Sung Hoon’s.” Sung Hoon slapped Min Sung on the back and smiled.

“Now,” continued Ji Won. “What do you want Min Sung? A car, money, women? Tell us and it’s yours.”

“Yeah,” said Sung Hoon. “Just name it buddy and it’s yours.”

I thought about it for a while. The only thing I wanted was Ji Won but I couldn’t say that. Since he was suspecting me so much there was only one thing I should ask for. “I want a woman,” I told them. They all opened their mouths in shock.

“Alright Min Sung, you dog!” yelled Sung Hoon, breaking the silence. “At least you’re proving to us that you’re a man now!”

“Okay,” said Ji Won slowly. “Who’s the girl?”

“So Kyung Hee,” I announced.

I saw Sung Hoon’s smiling face turn mad.

“Who do you want?” Sung Hoon asked me in disbelief.

I repeated myself. “So Kyung Hee.”

Sung Hoon grabbed me by the collar of my shirt. “Out of all the girls you could have picked, why her?” he yelled at me. I knew Sung Hoon liked Kyung Hee but Kyung Hee was the only person that could help me. “I happen to like her too,” I answered him. “Besides, you all said I can have anything I want, and I want Kyung Hee.”

“He’s right,” said Ji Won softly. “We can’t go back on our words.” Ji Won clapped his hands for attention. “So Kyung Hee now belongs to Ahn Min Sung. Anyone from SechsKies who touches her, the penalty is death.”

Su Won and Ji Yong had to hold Sung Hoon back from attacking me. “I thought you were my friend!” he yelled as they took him away. I sighed and headed for my room.

Ji Won looked at Min Sung as he was walking away. “Min Sung.”

“Yes hyung?”

“Are you sure that’s what you want?”

“Yes hyung. I’ve never been more sure in my life.” Then Min Sung left.

When I made it back into my room, Kyung Hee was in there waiting for me. “What the hell is going on?” she asked me. I knew it was time to tell her my story. When I finished, she was bawling like a baby. I handed her a tissue.

“Th..that is s..so..romantic,” Kyung Hee said, sobbing.

I patted her head as she leaned on me. “No, it’s not.”

“So you’re not going to tell Ji Won who you really are?”

I shook my head. “It wouldn’t matter anyways.”

“How do you know? If he knows you’re still alive, who knows? He might fall in love with you.”

“Maybe,” I began slowly. “But then he’d love me out of pity and not out of love. I don’t want that.”

“Oh.” Kyung Hee stared at the floor. “I wonder if Mickey really likes me.”

“What?!” I asked in surprise.

She looked at me sheepishly. “Oh, I forgot to tell you that Mickey and I are beginning to fall for each other.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I didn’t have a chance to. Besides, it just happened.”

“I’m sorry Kyung Hee.”

“It’s okay,” she said as she hugged me. “We’ll just have to put our little romance on hold for a while. You’re more important.”

“No, I’ll go tell—“

My words were cut off by my lack of air. This time my attack was worser than it ever had been before. Kyung Hee stared at me frightened. “Mina! What’s happening?” “C..can’t breathe…” I managed to say. She lifted me up.

“Come on, I’ll take you to the hospital.”

“Don’t let the others see me,” I said to her before I collapsed into total darkness.

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Part 32

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Slowly I began to open my eyes. I closed them instantly because the light reflecting me was so bright. Am I on the other side? I wondered. I managed to squint my eyes open. I found myself strapped to a pulse racer machine and an IV fluid was hooked up to me. I started to look around my room. I was in a hospital and I saw that my door was open slightly ajar. Then I heard 2 voices talking and I began to eavesdrop.

“It’s a miracle that she’s still alive,” said the doctor.

“Is she going to be okay?” Kyung Hee asked him.

“Well, according to these test results, her heart will expire any time now. We need to get her a heart transplant soon because she’s past overdue for 2 years already. I made some calls and there is a matching donor for her in England.”

“I’ll have to talk to her about it.”

“Please do,” said the doctor. “It’s her only hope of living.”

Kyung Hee slowly entered my room. She stared at me with wide eyes. “You heard everything Mina?” I nodded my head weakly and took the air respirator off my mouth. “You can tell him to forget about it. I’m not going to England for a couple of months to get surgery.”

Kyung Hee ran over and shook me. “Mina, are you crazy? You have to or you’ll die.”

“No,” I told her stubbornly. “It was so hard for me to find Ji Won and I won’t let go of him just like that.”

Kyung Hee began to cry. “I don’t want you to die though.”

I looked at her sadly. “You’re a good friend Kyung Hee. I know you’ll be the perfect girl for Sung Hoon.” I yanked the IV tube off my arm. “Come on. Let’s go home.”

A little over a month later….

My heart condition began to grow worse. My attacks became more frequently and undetected. It would happen during odd times like when I’m showering or having dinner with the SechsKies guys. Luckily Kyung Hee was always there by my side to cover for me. Sung Hoon hated me. I can tell by the way he acts. He probably thinks that Kyung Hee really likes Ahn Min Sung (that’s me). What he doesn’t know is Kyung Hee truly does love him and it breaks her heart seeing him go out with other girls. I think he’s doing that to make her jealous.

As for Ji Won, he began to grow distant towards me. He wouldn’t talk to me much and he’s been depressed about something lately. I wish I could know what was bothering him because it hurts me to see him sad like that. Secrets are definitely hard to keep. Especially ones that you have to cover everyday. I should have known that my disguise and heart attacks would be exposed soon but it just came to me unexpectedly…

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Part 33

**********

June 15, 1999

Ji Won was in his depressed state again. There was this empty void inside him that he couldn’t erase. It was a recurring pain that never seemed to end. He felt lonely. Whenever he sees Min Sung and Kyung Hee together, it disturbs him. He could’t figure out what it was but he kept finding something wrong with the picture. Then a knock came on his door. “Come in,” he said, without bothering to see who it was.

I entered Ji Won’s room holding a tray of food. Now these days since he was in his isolated stage, he didn’t eat much anymore. I was beginning to worry. I didn’t have much time left with him so I wanted to take care of him the best I could with the time I still had left. “Hyung? Are you hungry? I brought you some food.”

Ji Won turned around to see who it was. It was Min Sung. “Just put it down.” Min Sung placed it down before Ji Won. Ramyun, mee-yuk-gook, rice, and curry. ‘How does he know I like these food?’ Ji Won thought. “Take it away I don’t want it.”

“But hyung, you haven’t ate for days. Please eat a little bit.”

“I said take it away!” Ji Won yelled, his anger exploding. He knocked over the tray of food. It ended up spilling all over Min Sung. Ji Won and Min Sung stared at each other. Neither of them knew what to say. Min Sung leaned over to clean up the spilled food and then left. Ji Won fell back in his chair. He ran his hands through his hair frustrated. Min Sung was too much like Mina that it was driving him crazy. Ji Won knew he was out of line though, so he began to walk to Min Sung’s room to apologize.

What a mess, I thought as I stripped out of my clothes. I soaked myself into a hot water bath, hoping it could wash away all my troubles. When I was done with my bath, I wrapped myself up in a towel and got out of the tub. Then I heard my room door open and then close. Must be Kyung Hee, I thought as I began to put my clothes on.

Ji Won entered Min Sung’s room, not knowing what to say. He wasn’t good at apologizing. He looked around and didn’t see Min Sung anywhere. Then he heard the sound of water draining. He figured Min Sung must be in the bathroom. Ji Won opened the door slightly and saw Min Sung’s bare back. He shuts the door quietly and began to leave. He planned to apologize later but then his mind began to sort out what he had just saw. Min Sung’s back had an ‘E’ on it. Ji Won breaks the open the door to the bathroom.

I was buttoning up my long sleeve shirt when my door suddenly opened. I stared at Ji Won in shock but then remembered I wasn’t completely dressed yet. I buttoned up the remaining buttons and then faced him. “Hyung!” I said surprised. “What are you doing here?” I caught Ji Won looking down at my shirt. I had buttoned it all wrong and a great deal of my body was showing. Oh hell, I thought. “Hyung, I can explain-“ I began to tell him but I never had a chance to.

Ji Won stared at Min Sung’s exposed body. Without thinking, he ripped open Min Sung’s shirt finding that Min Sung was indeed a woman. Min Sung stood still, stunned at what Ji Won had just did. He turned Min Sung’s back to him. There it was. His ‘E.’ “M...Mina?” he asked uncertainly, afraid to hope.

I didn’t know what I was more embarrassed from. Letting Ji Won see me exposed or being caught. In all my life I had never been angry at Ji Won but I didn’t know why I reacted impulsively. As I held my shirt together, I slapped Ji Won across the face hard with my other hand. His head snapped to the side. He held his cheeks as he turned to face me. “How could you do this to me Ji Won?” I asked him screaming. “Get out! Get out!” I started to push him out the door.

Ji Won was in shock. Mina, he thought. He grabbed her arms as she pushed him out. “Mina, don’t! Is it really you?”

I glared at him. As if he knew, Ji Won took off his jacket and puts it around my shoulders. I zipped it up, covering myself. “Yes Ji Won, it is me Mina.”

“But I thought you were dead.”

“I didn’t die. I faked my death.”

“Why?”

“So I could go to Korea.”

“You came all the way from Hawaii to find me? Why didn’t you just tell me who you are?”

Ji Won looked at Mina, who had tears coming out of her eyes. He was about to brush them off for her but then Mina pushed his hand away. “That’s the only way I could do to be with you. Join SechsKies.” Ji Won stared at Mina as she continued talking. “After you left me all alone in Hawaii, my life became so miserable. Not because of my stepmom, but because of you. I finally found a way to leave Hawaii to find you. I was so happy when I thought about how I could see you again. I thought—“

Ji Won began to feel a rush of mixed emotions. Mina’s words made him sad but seeing her alive in front of him, made him want to hold onto her and never let her go. He paused to let her continue. "—I thought that we could be together like we were….oppa and dongsang in Hawaii. But obviously, I was wrong. You had all those girls around you that you’ve completely forgotten about me.”

Ji Won felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. Each one of Mina’s words stabbed him like a knife. “Mina, you don’t understand. I—“ Mina didn’t wait for his explanation and ran. Ji Won chased after her.

“Mina!” he yelled as he chased her out of the hotel.

“Hyung,” said Su Won as he saw Ji Won ran by him. Ji Won pushed him out of the way.

Kyung Hee ran up the 5 Kies. “What happened?”

Su Won shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. Ji Won was chasing Min Sung and kept screaming Mina.”

Kyung Hee stumbled back and Sung Hoon caught her. ‘Oh no, poor Mina,’ she thought. She turned around to see Sung Hoon looking at her sadly. Kyung Hee moved close to him and held onto him tight. Neither one of them lets go.

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Part 34

**********

June 16, 1999

It was 3 a.m. and Ji Won had lost Mina. As he chased her down the streets he lost track of where she ran off to. “Mina!” he continued shouting. His cries echoed throughout the streets. A lot of people heard him yelling. So did the Black Dragons.

Tae Won silently crept behind Ji Won. Ji Won was all alone. Tae Won gave an evil smile. He had a plan. He and his sidekick began to set up a trap for Ji Won, which they knew he would fall for.

“Mina!” I covered my ears. I didn’t want to hear Ji Won’s voice. I was so confused. All I ever wanted was to be with Ji Won but now it’s all complicated. I leaned back against the alley wall. I needed time to think.

Ji Won ran through the alleys as he continued searching for Mina. Then he ran into Tae Won. Out of the darkness, Tae Won stepped out. “Looking for someone?” he asked.

“Yeah,” said Ji Won, glaring at him. “I’m looking for Min Sung.”

“The punk that stabbed me?” Tae Won asked furiously.

“Yeah.”

“I got him.”

“You do?” Ji Won asked surprised. “Hand him over!”

“There he is,” said Tae Won, pointing to a figure up ahead. From the back it did look like Min Sung but little did Ji Won know that it was all a setup.

“Mina?” Ji Won whispered as he approached the person. It was a Black Dragon member. He grabbed a hold of Ji Won around the neck and began shooting Ji Won continually in the stomach.

I looked out from where I was hiding when I heard gunshots. “Ji Won!” I screamed as I ran out from where I hid. My scream threw the Black Dragon member off guard. Seeing his chance, Ji Won grabbed the gun from him and shot him in the head. He fell to the floor dead. Tae Won started to run away but Ji Won aimed a shot directly at his heart. Tae Won fell down dead too.

Ji Won looked at me and then collapsed to the cold ground. He wasn’t able to hold on any longer. Rain began to pour. “Ji Won!” I screamed, shaking him. He was still breathing but barely. I lifted Ji Won up on my back and carried him to a nearby hospital. The rain drenched us and it grew hard for me to carry him because of the weight. However, I managed to make it. They rushed him into the emergency room. Four hours later the doctor came out.

“How is he?” I asked as I ran up to him.

“He was shot 4 times in the stomach region. As you know, a person needs at least one kidney to survive but both of his are destroyed. Unless we can find a donor, he’ll have to die.”

“Give him mine,” I told the doctor right away.

“Are you sure?” I nodded my head. “Because of your heart condition, if we have this operation that means you can die instantly during the transfer.”

I nodded my head again. “I understand. Please let’s have the operation now.”

They tested me and luckily I was compatible with Ji Won. Six hours later the surgery was completed. It’s a miracle that I’m still alive. I knew not for long though.

I woke up finding myself in a hospital bed with Ji Won on a bed next to me. He was still in a coma. I got out of bed and went near him. I stroked his hair gently as I bent down to kiss him. “I love you Ji Won,” I whispered to him. Then I left the room, going to the last place I wanted to be.

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Part 35

**********

Ji Won began to wake up. He looked around and realized he was in a hospital room. Slowly his door began to open and the rest of SechsKies entered his room. “Hyung?” asked Sung Hoon. “Are you okay?” Ji Won nodded his head weakly as he pulled himself up. “I’m okay now.”

Jae Jin walked over to his bedside. “We’re so sorry Matthew hyung. We didn’t know what happened until this morning. We got revenge for you though when we wiped out the entire Black Dragon hideout.”

“It’s okay,” he told them softly as they all bowed down.

Then a knock came to his door. The doctor came in. “Oh good, you’re awake,” he said.

Ji Won looked at him. “Thanks for saving me Doc.”

“No need to thank me. Your girlfriend is the one who saved your life.”

Ji Won began to panic. “What did she do?”

“She could have gotten a chance to go to England to get a heart transplant but she decided to stay to give you her kidney instead.”

“The girl…where is she?” he asked frantically.

The doctor looked around the room. “She was supposed to be in here—“ Ji Won got out of bed and ran out of the room, leaving everyone staring after him. “Hyung!” all the 5 Kies shouted but Ji Won had already left. He ran searching for Mina. He knew where she went.

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Part 36

**********

June 17, 1999

Please let Ji Won be okay, I prayed to myself silently. Hopefully my prayers will be answered. So is this the end? My heart never changed because it was still the same one I loved Ji Won with. I couldn’t bear the thought of trading it with someone else. I was so confused. Had I finished what I had really come for? What will happen to my love for Ji Won? I didn’t know these answers.

I felt weaker and my pen fell from my fingers. I stopped my story right there. Truth is, I didn’t know how to end it so I might as well leave it unfinished. I took off my cap and clothes. I was wearing a long white flowing dress underneath. It was the kind I always wanted to wear when I thought I was going to marry Ji Won.

My hair had grew out a little bit. It grazed my chin. I started to put on some light make up and combed my hair. I don’t know why I’m getting dressed up for but I knew I wanted to die looking like Nam Mina, and not Ahn Min Sung. I looked at my reflection again. At least I look like a girl now, I thought with a little laugh.

When I was done, I leaned against the hard rock and wrapped my arms around it, pretending it was Ji Won. Then I heard a voice yelling out my name. “Mina!” I recognized the voice. Ji Won. I smiled, knowing at least he’ll be the last person I’ll see before I go.

Ji Won looked around the beach and saw a figure in a white dress. ‘Mina,’ he thought as he ran towards her. It was Mina. He lifted her into his arms and onto his lap as he sat down on the rocks. ‘Mina,’ he whispered to her and kissed her on the neck and face. Tears began to fall down his face.

All of my energy seemed to have been drained as I forced myself to open my eyes. My face felt wet but it wasn’t from my tears and it wasn’t raining either. My vision was kind of blurred and I couldn’t see Ji Won too well. I reached up to touch his face. It was wet. “Ji Won,” I whispered to him. “Please don’t cry. You’re scaring me. I’ve never seen you cry before.”

Ji Won looked down at Mina, through his tear-filled eyes. “I’m so sorry Mina.” “Don’t say you’re sorry,” she whispered back to him. “You’ve done nothing wrong.” Ji Won shook his head. “I’m so sorry. You’ve done so much for me and I haven’t even realized it. I haven’t done anything for you except put you through a lot of pain.”

I reached up wipe away Ji Won’s tears. “I didn’t expect anything back from you oppa. But I want to know why did you leave me in Hawaii? I could have called the wedding off if you didn’t want to marry me.” I felt Ji Won’s grip on me tighten.

“I didn’t mean to leave you Mina,” answered Ji Won, his voice shaking. “I couldn’t take my dad anymore. My grandpa had given me his inheritance and I planned on taking you and Sung Hoon with me. I didn’t tell you about it because I was afraid you wouldn’t leave your family for me. When I came to your house to get you, my uncle’s men were there waiting for me and chased me to the docks. I escaped but I wanted to go back but couldn’t. I could have put your life in danger. This isn’t the first time I’ve cried Mina. I cried when I knew I was going to be separated from you.”

Despite the pain, I managed to smile. Ji Won didn’t want to leave me, I thought. “Look Ji Wonee, I’m wearing the dress I always wanted to wear if we had gotten married.” Ji Won looked at me. “You’re beautiful Mina,” he said to me. “If everything would have gone as planned, we could have been married here in Korea.”

One thing was still bothering me. I think I managed to hold onto my life this long because of this question. “Ji Wonee, do you love me? I mean romantically, and not as your dongsang.”

Ji Won looked down at Mina. She was beautiful. His heart ached when he saw how pale she was. He realized she never did knew that he had loved her all along. “Yes, Mina,” he told her. “I loved you since the first day we met. I loved you then and I had never stopped loving you.” He bent down to kiss her.

My heart was deepened to a warm bliss. Ji Won said he loved me, I told myself as I felt him kiss me. Then a cold realization washed over me but I didn’t really care. I always thought that I was hurt when I didn’t receive Ji Won’s love. Instead, I found out my pain came from when I didn’t give Ji Won enough love. I haven’t told Ji Won I loved him yet.

“Ji Won,” I said to him as he looked down at me. “Thank you for making my dream come true by saying that you love me. I know you’re lying and just saying it to repay me but you didn’t have to. I did it all because I—I—“

I was losing my voice. Not now, please, I prayed as tears fell down my face. I need to tell him before I go. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the white marble stone Ji Won had given to me when I was Min Sung. I pointed towards the ocean to make Ji Won look. I threw the stone with all my remaining strength. It skipped 3 times. ‘Perfect,’ I thought as I closed my eyes for the last time.

As Ji Won listened to what Mina was saying, he was stunned still. He couldn’t believe his ears. She thought he was saying he loved her as payment of what she had done for him. More tears fell down his face as he shook his head. Then when Mina pointed out to the ocean, Ji Won saw her throw the stone he had given her. It skipped 3 times. I love you. Ji Won smiled, knowing that Mina loved him too. He had known that she had loved him all along but she never told it to him either. “Mina, you don’t understand. I do love you!” he shouted. Then Ji Won looked down at her. She had passed on. “Mina?” He shook her gently. Her body was still and completely lifeless. “Mina!” he screamed in pain. He held onto her tightly, burying his face into her neck. He was crying so loudly and painfully that both their bodies shook.

Sung Hoon and the others finally made it to where Ji Won and Mina was. They circled Ji Won, who was bent over holding someone they couldn’t see. “Hyung,” said Sung Hoon as he put his hand on Ji Won’s shoulder. “Are you okay? Where’s Min Sung?” Ji Won lifted his head up and Sung Hoon saw who Ji Won was holding. He fell back into the sand shocked. “M…Mina?” he asked in disbelief.

“Mina?” the others repeated.

“Min Sung is Mina?” asked Ji Yong.

Ji Won nodded his head. “She dressed up as a guy to join SechsKies to be with me.”

“You’re right, Mickey. Mina did love Matthew hyung,” said Jae Duc quietly.

Sung Hoon got up and hugged both Ji Won’s and Mina’s bodies tightly. “Why?” he asked crying. Everyone remained silent. Ji Won shook his head. He moved away from Sung Hoon and turned to face all of them. “SechsKies is my family. You guys are all like my brothers. Please be my witness as I make this promise to Mina.” They nodded their heads sadly and listened.

“Mina,” Ji Won began. “When you were alive, I was never able to tell you that I loved you. Now that you’re gone, you don’t believe I love you. Even though I never showed you the kind of love you wanted me to, it doesn’t mean I didn’t love you with all I have.” Ji Won paused and yanked off the ring around his necklace. “With SechsKies here as my witnesses, I, Eun Ji Won, take Nam Mina as my wife ‘til eternity. I have nothing to give you Mina except my heart, which belonged to you from the first day we met.”

He kissed her lips as he slipped on the ring. The others watched him in silence. They were surprised when because of all the time Ji Won had been their leader, he had never used his real name Ji Won before. They knew he was serious. When it was over, Ji Won lifted Mina up into his arms as he stood up. “As your leader, I have a final announcement to make. I am quitting SechsKies.”

“What?” they all asked in disbelief.

“Hyung,” said Su Won. “Please reconsider.”

Ji Won shook his head. “This is the second time Mina left me. I really can’t go on as your leader. The person I loved the most is taken away from me too soon and she died not knowing that I truly do love her.”

The others understood what Ji Won meant. Jae Jin walked up to Ji Won. “What do you plan to do then Matthew?”

“I don’t know,” he answered. I’ll be somewhere where I’ll always be with Mina and constantly remind her that I love her. And as for SechsKies, with all the money and businesses we have, I don’t see any reason why we have to commit any more crimes. We each have enough money to spend for the rest of our lives already.”

They all nodded.

Ji Won placed a hand on Sung Hoon’s shoulder. “Sung Hoon,” said Ji Won.

“Yes hyung?” asked Sung Hoon. “If you do love Kyung Hee, tell her before it’s too late.”

Sung Hoon nodded. “I will.”

Ji Won looked at his 5 brothers for the last time. “This final meeting of SechsKies is now adjourned. I wish you all the best and hope you do find your true love because I have. Good bye.”

Ji Won picked up Mina’s book and scribbled something into it. When he was done, he placed it down back on the rock. Then Ji Won lifted Mina’s body up into his arms as he walked away.

“Hyung!” shouted Sung Hoon. “Where are you going?”

Ji Won continued walking and didn’t answer him. The 5 Kies watched their leader walk towards the sunset carrying his bride and disappeared. They picked up the book to see what Ji Won had written. The last entry of Mina’s story was,

“True love never has an ending.”

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Niceee? Hope you all enjoyed it! :D

P.s/:Stop stealing all my links for goodness sake! >:(
ThankYouVeryMuch.

2010-06-15T07:47:00.005+08:00

♥229th post ; Some memories just never fade.

The 2 most hateful words: If Only...

14062010♥/Band Investiture.

Band Investiture was a total SUCCESS! :D

congratulations to ChesterLowYuCheng for being the QM and SL! (:

I miss the sec 4s seniors. :(

gosh, i saw CHINBEE too! ^^v

awh, hope that you and ShuXian like the card we made specially for you.

hall> practise> change> waste time>talk> Mr Glosz speech> sec 1s performance> sec 2 and 3s performance> change out> band> canteen> lunch> homed.

lunched with Vanessa Senior and was like comparing the way she ate and twinlove. :P

chatted and crapped before going home. yay!

okay, got to go prepare for band later, bye lovelies!

I don't miss you, I miss what I thought you were.

2010-06-14T20:23:00.008+08:00

♥228th post ; I'm such a failure to start with.

i'm sorry if i have been a total failure towards friendship these days.
i've lost complete trust in them.
the one i trusted the most has already let me down.
are those just lies, or words of comfortment?
if then, i rather don't hear them.
(L)

kthxbye.
okay, not in the mood to post now, will update another day.

-Dedicated to my most beloved friend that mean too much to me for words to express...
Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.

No comments yea?

2010-06-13T08:34:00.005+08:00

♥227 th post ; You meant alot to me, once.

This post is dedicated to someone that mean a lot to me, ~~once~~ forever.
Even if I don't mean anything to you anymore.

Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they

But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the stuff that you do?

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

You was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It was you who taught me never to give up,
to cherish every moment I have with anyone.
But in the end, you gave me up.
What was that supposed to mean?

No comments please/-
end.

Do you know what is 吃不到葡萄，就说葡萄酸？
I guess the real reason behind all your hatred is because you didn't have the chance to love me.
You tried, but you know you can't have me, so you've decided to hate me.
Don't doubt it, I know you inside out.

2010-06-12T18:22:00.008+08:00

♥226 th post ; Outing with MaeganSAL TwinLove! (((: (L)

HELLO PEEEEEEEEEEPS! went out with dearest babeh twin love today! :D
my house> douby> plaza sing> harbourfront> vivo(:
it was AWESOMEEE! GOSH! I love her ultimately!
enjoyed myself to the maximum! whooo!
returned from school a little later than expected. :(
sorry to make my dear twin wait! D:
after that, ate lunchy at my house, yay! ^^v
twin watched spongebob while I bathed(:
haha, traveled to douby then plaza sing for shrek! :P
but unfortunately, it's at 7+ pm, too late for us.
awh, ate our honeydew sago! wheeeeee, it was yummy! (Y)
went to vivo, hoping to catch an earlier movie,
but then, it was worse! :O it starts at around 8+ pm, eff yea!
so, its okay, took at positively and went seven eleven to buy gulp.
twin bought a coke while i bough ice lemon tea! (:
proceed to minitoons to shop around for sweets, $1.80 for 100grams+,
can't finish it till now, bleh. :X failure sia!
made our way to superdog again! :D
twin bought a chili cheese fries and we camwhored alot! whohoo! (:
relaxed and did silly pose for around 1 hr, then went arcade to take neoprints!
teehee, took 2 rounds! :D
they are really nice, sweet and AWESOMEEE ttm! yay! :B
went to pet shop to see hamsters awhile before going home with twin.
pictures will be updated by tues! (((: stay tuned!

I (L) MY #1 DEAREST BABEH TWIN! ♥

I feel like i'm the only one trying to keep this friendship going. I can't keep it going all by myself. I ain't like an immortal.

2010-06-11T07:56:00.004+08:00

♥225th post ; Sometimes, one must learn to forgive and forget.
I will always forgive someone worth to be forgiven.
Those who are not, then let me entertain you myself.
I have no more energy to bear hatred in mind.
So please do, get a life and leave me alone, now.

I suddenly miss 6Faith'o8 so much! D:
rahh, when's the class outing? 19, 20 or 21 june? (:
can't wait to meet up all my friends!
not going band later on, have to chiong one of my book review plus compre. :X
eff luhs, those teachers, give so much projects. :(
i rather spend those time mugging more work.
done the chinese and maths project so far only.
blehhh, have to chiong for the this and next week already.
my last week, 20-07june except wed, is free like heavens. :D
yay! gonna make full use of it, not to study, but for more outings everyday! ^^v
okay, that's all for now, have to go do my homeworky.
Tags Replied:
>VanessaTYL: haha! okay luhs, give you a kiss! (L) :D
>Zinnia!: Yeapp, it was awesome to the maximum! Lets have another one soon! :P
>Maegan.SAL :D: Awh, thanks dearest! (L)
>Le'schane: Oops, you're still enjoying yourself overseas lehs! >:D will ask you when you return! (:

2010-06-10T20:28:00.009+08:00

♥224th post ; 10062010' VivoCity Outing- AWESOMEEE. :D

hello peoples! ^^v
went VivoCity's Outing with Charmaine, Maegan, Michelle, PeiZhen & Zinnia today!
gosh, it was really great, haven't been there for like more than a year, omg.
met at hougang station and twin tried to frighten me with a ghost story, teehee, fail! :D
i didn't realise that Michelle and Zinnia are on board the same MRT as me sia, laughoutloud.
was so shock to see them after coming out from the MRT, haha! (:
gahgah, Charmaine and PeiZhen Lao liao, need slow slow walk, okay, so we waited for them.
missed 4 trains, haha, but actually building up excitement while waiting for them. :D
saw Jenna at the MRT station too! coincidence huh? :D
finally reached Vivo and went to book some movie tickets for Marmaduke first. (Y)
VivoCity is so mega huge manzxc, but we can't even find something to eat. :/
no mac, no kfc, so went to eat superdog at last.
shared a chicken burger and chili cheese fries with twin,which was lucky.
the burger was like so big, gosh! :O
ate and PeiZhen was flaring because her set meal was the last to come, haha!
me and twin went to buy popcorn and coke for the movie afterwards(:
the movie was really fantabulous, or rather the food and cinema. :P
but who cares, it's really a nice movie recconmanded.
it taught me alot of life lessons and a bit touching at the end.
overall, its still real awesome! :D go watch!

^That's Marmaduke, he's huge, but superrr cuteee. :B
went to walk around afterwards and went arcade to take neoprints for only $3!
can't believe that it's so cheap, its cool alrights! (:
twin brought me to to see some dogs, puppies, they're so freaking cute to the ultimate!
*heart melts* i want want want and need need need them! :(
went to the small pool(?) to play with MC, PZ ad twin(:
too bad Zinnia is wearing jeans and thus unable to come inside play together.
Charmaine also didn't join us. :X
splashed water at each other, esp LIMPEIZHEN! D:
my clothes all wet manzxc!
she thought that a fake plastic man swinging up a pole was a real man! ;D
roflmao, really funny luhs, laughed till stomach ache.
thank you Zinnia darlinq for helping us take some crazy photos. :P
went to the playground afterwards, PeiZhen wanted to ride a horse, but to ex. :(
camwhored alot there and asked some passerbys to help us take too. :')
went to shop around after that and PeiZhen and Zinnia went Candy Empire,
while me, Maegan, Michelle and Charmaine went to the gallery(:
homed all the way from harbourfront to punggol at around 5 plus.
all the way, 17 stops! D: they all pangseh me at either Serangoon, Hougang or SengKang. :(
anyways, thats all for today, below are some photos we took, enjoy!
kthxbai, see you all again! :D

I (L) all my beloved girlfriends! :D

Thank you twinlove dbt for keeping occupied and making me laugh like shit today! {♥}

Hugs&Kisses,Hugs&Kisses, BYES! :D

2010-06-10T09:21:00.002+08:00

♥223th post ; Its the best day ever! (:
Tags Replied;
>MAEGAN.SAL :D : Haha! Don't cry arhs! :D I (L) you too! XOXO {♥}
>ZINNIA! : yeah, my schedule is all packed to the max! D:
>Marilyn : thanks so much dearest, can't wait for another outing with you! (L) (L) (L)
>Meechiao : Thanks smexaye! (((:
>VanessaTYL : *pretends to ignore* okay luhs, you very sweet luhs! :D Love you too!
>BUNESSA : LOL. thanks, rachael SUPER unglam, she'll kill me if she sees this. :P
>PEIZHEN : yay! ^^v damn happy can! ♥ can't wait, 2 more hours to see my smartybum! :D

Going out with MaeganS, MichelleT, L.PeiZhen, ZinniaT, CharmaineQ later! :D
damn high now can! wheee! (((:
watching a movie called what marmaduke(?) LOL. ^^v
but i bet it'll be nice and awesome!
i want to see my dear twin twin DBT! (L) miss her oh so much! :(
finally can meet up with 2DieDieMustTry classmates too! *happy*
okay, thats all for now, eating my breakfast soon, so byes!
will update more after i return. ;)

get a life.

2010-06-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

♥222th post ; Timetable for holiday. (Updated)
Timetable for now.
09062010-Band(1pm to 5 pm)
10062010-Outing with MT,ZTLT,LPZ,CQXL,MSAL,♥
11062010-Band(1pm to 5pm)
12062010-Outing with MaeganSuAnLi,♥
13062010-Free(Family Day)
14062010-Band(9am to 12pm)
15062010-Band(9am to 1pm)
16062010-Project ; IPW, Geography and History
17062010-Outing with Clarinet Section,♥
18062010-Outing with LimHuiYan and OdessaLingJiaYing,♥
19062010-Free
20062010-Free(Family Day)
21062010-CindyLimJiaJia's Birthday, Project ; Science
22062010-Free
23062010-Band(9am to 1pm)
24062010-Free
25062010-ChangXiuLi's Birthday, Outing with MaeganSuAnLi and VanessaSheeHuiJin,♥
26062010-Free
27062010-Free(Family Day)

*Reserving ;
1 date for PeiZiHua, GladysYeoHaoJing, ♥
1 date for MarilynSong, ZinniaTan,
1 date for Classmates(eg: Michelle.T, Jolene.F, Gladys.S, LeeYiJia, Belicia.T, Maegan.S)
some date for MaeganSuAnLi.
some days for projects.
& for some others.

2010-06-09T19:52:00.009+08:00

♥221th post ; BBQ, 09062010(:

I love bestfriend ttm.

Brother eating cake(:

BestF drooling over(((:

Me and BestF's share of cake! :D

How messy the BBQ pit? :O

Happy Birthday To You~

IvyJieh and boyf(:

Helping out. :D

Me and BestF, I (L) her THE MOST(:

Prinkles opn plate plus ice lemon tea(:

Sunset...

Ahhh~

My craziest look ever. :O

BESTFRIENDDDDD! (L) :D

Starting our tunnel.

Didi and her kor building a... shield?

Me and BESTFRIEND! (((: (L)

Me and ZiHua dearest. :D

Another beautiful shot by... MY MUM! *applause*! LOL. :D

I (♥) MY BIKE. The heart was washed off by the rain, still can seea little(((:

Sea water, clear blue.

Some girl came and join us? :O

Look at my photography skills! :DD

Hmmm, (:

My feet.

Little sandcastles by didi and bestf's kor(:

The tunnel me and BestF dug! didn't manage to capture the done one, too dark by then(:
but seriously, it's very deep and long. ♥

FOOD after a long day(:

The two couple bikes we rented at Pasir Ris beach. :D

Romantic huh... (:

ShaoTeng didi(:

I haven't seen a swing for more than a year. Eff yeah(:

Just in time for me to catch a shot. ^^v

Caught in a spider web? (((:

Zihua and Hanwen(:

sorry that the photos are not in order, apologise! D:

I ♥ MY #1 BESTFRIEND FOREVER!

2010-06-09T19:00:00.013+08:00

♥220th post ; Mega Photo Uploading! (MalaccaTrip)

Michelle Chio huh! (((:

Donate money or give money? >:D

What they doing?

Look at the professional do. :D

My DBT TWIN! (L)

Vanessa dancing the guppy move? :D

Cheeze?

Wellcome! ^^v

yucks, unglam, but still meaningful(:

Picture Of the day! ;DD

Zzzz...

Noodle Factory.

Bus rear mirror(:

Serene! ((:

My darlinq! (L)

Erm? Sorry Rachael! :D

Maegan, Vanessa, Rachael, Jocelyne and me. :D

Joyjoy shyshy huh? (:

advertisment. who's that behind? (:

JASMINE!! :D

Ooh, nothing to do in bus. :(

I (L) TWIN THE MOST!

Nice one, twist!

(L)

Huingoh dearest! :DDD

MARILYN!! (L)OVED.

Shyshy again(:

what's with my tongue?

Lao Chong! :DDD (Vanessa's fav cap(: )

Vanessa and ME!

Nice pose! ;)

Ooh, I see three smexayes!

Maegan's beautiful fingers(:

Rachael have flu? :D

Had so much fun there! I (L) 2DieDieMustTry to the maximum! ;D
esp MaeganSAL, JocelyneCTL, RachaelLHM, VanessaSHJ and ZinniaTLT(((:
not posting other artifactural objects here, lazy. Zz.

2010-06-08T21:27:00.005+08:00

I'm SORRY MARILYN... ♥

i didn't mean it, please forgive me this time, i've let you down...

let me have a chance to repay you douple, triple, i'm really sorry dearest. :(

it's all my fault, please don't be disappointed in me...

sorry, i'm really remorseful about this...

I love you, thank you for all you have done for me...

i've let you down all this while...

sorry...

you really mean a lot to me,

I love you.

219th post.

2010-06-08T19:25:00.007+08:00

I ♥ MaeganSuAnLi Dearest Babeh Twin! (DBT) :D

Thank you for everything beloved, I love you more than ever(:
and i'll reserve MORE dates for you and me! (L)
#1 Best Sister Forever and Always!
WithLove, G.YuFang.

218th post.

2010-06-08T09:16:00.003+08:00

♥217th post ; Timetable for holiday.
Rahh, I'm bored to the ultimate most. :X
and I'm pangsehing my homework for like 2 weeks, gosh.
Timetable for now.
09062010-Band(1pm to 5 pm)
10062010-Free
11062010-Band(1pm to 5pm)
12062010-Outing with MaeganSuAnLi,♥
13062010-Free(Family Day)
14062010-Band(9am to 12pm)
15062010-Band(9am to 1pm)
16062010-Free
17062010-Free
18062010-Outing with LimHuiYan and OdessaLingJiaYing,♥
19062010-Free
20062010-Free(Family Day)
21062010-CindyLimJiaJia's Birthday, Free
22062010-Free
23062010-Band(9am to 1pm)
24062010-Free
25062010-ChangXiuLi's Birthday, Outing with MaeganSuAnLi and VanessaSheeHuiJin,♥
26062010-Free
27062010-Free(Family Day)

*Reserving ;
1 date for PeiZiHua, GladysYeoHaoJing, ♥
1 date for MarilynSong, ZinniaTan,
1 date for Classmates(eg: Michelle.T, Jolene.F, Gladys.S, LeeYiJia, Belicia.T, Maegan.S)
1 date for MaeganSuAnLi.
some days for projects.
& for some others.

That's all for now.
Ohyarh, and before I forget, my handphone is under repair. :X
Please refrain from smsing from today till 25June yeapps, thanks! (((:

kthbyex, (L)

2010-06-07T10:46:00.004+08:00

♥216th post ; I love heartxzc love Bestfriend.

By: PeiZiHua BestFriend @ bucketfullofsnow.bs(((:

Yeah today went to Pasir ris WITH BESTIE.....had barbecue and even ride on a couple bike...how romantic....but IT RAIN.... i and bestie covered ourselves with an pink umbrella...how romantic... hahahaha......than we had barbecue......my bro so damn shy, does not dare to take the food himself .....i and bestie had to TAKE FOOD FOR HIM...wht the hell....than it was than he dared to take the food....four little satay and THATS all and we were like what the hell....we went to a lot of places, built the sandcastle and dug a hole with water...omg how fun and so romantic.....hello i am not les ok ? than we had photoes taken and the scenary was so beautiful ....when it was time to go home ...yaya we went home ..thats all ....how i wish that we could stay longer....

OhGosh, I felt exactly the same too. :(
I want to stay FOREVER with her, but...
sadly, we cannnot meet up that often anymore.
but fortunately, she's still MY bestfriend'forever! :D

06062010♥
went to a family carnival with family and IvyJieh and her boyfriend(:
played loads of games and won some mysterious prizes, yay! :D
fancy me being so childish all the time, gee.
okay, the lucky draw numder came out as 00991 when ours is 00199, gosh!
haha, everyone was cursing. LaughOutLouds.
went to have lunch, western food, at a nearby kopitiam.
my mum won 4 free tickets to escape and wildwildwet by this year! (^^v)
had an hours free play at eXplorer kid at ehub too.
me and didi was like climbing about, yucks. :X
mum and dad took some pictures for us! Love them ttm! (L)
will post the photos together with the rest my next post, wed probably(:
had so much fun there.
and oh, i bought an orange ankle socks, madchio luhs! :D
the best part, went to watch Prince Of Percia at Century Square!

it was awesome and the scences are like mad cool!

i'm gonna buy the disc, yippee for me.

you must watch it, the sands of time so fantabulous! (((:

i'm advertising! LOL.

okay, I enjoyed the popcorn and drinks too, ;)

gtg for now, byes peoples!

2010-06-05T13:03:00.003+08:00

♥215th post ; Pictures will be updated soon.

Heyoh guys, sorry for not posting these few days, busy.
photos for the Malacca Trip 31052010/01062010 & BBQ 03062010 will be updated soon. :D
okay, got to go now, will post alot more when I get the photos, byes! (:

& Thank you GladysYeoHaoJing, PeiZiHua, for lending me your computers for HBL.
really appreciate it loads kks, I (L) you 2 the most! Muacks, muacks, muacks! (^^v)

oh, and sorry for the last minute of cancelling of our outing today, Gladys. D:
um, we go together with ZiHua on 09062010? I reserved for you 2 anyways!
with love, see you! :B

I ♥ MaeganSAL and ZinniaTLT, ttm.

2010-06-02T09:09:00.005+08:00

♥214th post ; MALACCA TRIP! :D
Class Photos(:

Teachers

Climbing up stairs

Bus Ride!

Above from Michelle Chua Facebook Account. ^

->http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=57544&id=1563641542#!/profile.php?id=1563641542

Day 1

Home>Nan Chiau>Mushroom Farm>ZenXin Organic Farm>Traditional Farm>Foo Chew Noodle Factory>Rediscovering Admiral ZhengHe @ Cheng Ho Cultural Museum.

I can't remember most of the above anyways, I'm sleeping throughout! :D

I LOVE the Foo Chew Noodle Factory part can, OMG. HAHA.

Bought some noodles home (:

I HATE the Flies there manzxc! D:

they are like really alot! wth -.-"

all our food are covered in flies, i believe. Yucks. :(

Cheng Ho Museum is fun too, got air-con nia! YAY! ^^v

Day 2
Learning Journey: Malacca Historical Tour>Baba Nyonya Heritage Museum>Shopping>Nan Chiau>Home.

The baba nyonya museum was fantabulously awesome maxcore!

i didn't know there was so much hisotry behind it.

didn't purchase any chopsticks though. :(

then we all shop shop shop and bough some drinks and blah blah(:

homed!

okay, gonna upload more photos soon, bye! :D

2010-05-30T08:11:00.010+08:00

♥213th post ; I heartxzc my beloved.

okay, went twin's house to do some projects yesterday.
chionged the maths and disturbed Rachael. :P
she sounded super funny over the phone manzxc,
plus Jocelyne's background music,
wah, perfect combination eh? (:
so basically completed some project,
and found out that there's nothing much to do. :X
called the mac delivery for our lunch.
crapped alot and watched xwnds plus trailers for some movies.
watched "eight-below" together!
ohmygod, you must watch, its freaking nice! ;DD
loved it maxcore, touching. :(
twin bloghopped while i just yawnnn in her ears.
Loflmao, talked about malacca trip and stuffs(:
ooh, we sounded like we're going for a month.
teehee, but who cares?
went home at 5++ after the movie.
thank you maegan's parents for giving me a lift!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY TWIN! xoxo.
thants all for today, byes people! ;)

2010-05-29T09:02:00.003+08:00

♥212th post ; I'm running out of words.

The words used to come out naturally effortlessly,
but now, i'm struggling to think of something to say to you.

I'm addicted to my dearest friends! :') ♥
esp, ZiHua, Gladys, Maegan, Marilyn, Zinnia & loads loads more!
thanks for making me SMILEEE.
ILoveYouAll! WoAiSiNiMen! LoveDieYou! (L)

Okay, this post is really random gahgah. :X
just have a craving to post early in the morning. Zz.
let me find something nice and motivating to share.
Why have EVERYONE been feeling down these days?
Holiday = Bonus Work. WTH. >:(
rahh, teachers really JiDanChaoYaDan, ChiBaoMeiShiZuo!
i haven't started doing anything yet, pratically nothing. :(
i think smiles and laughters are going to extinct soon,
and will soon be featured and top listed on the wanted list.
but, life is short, why struggle so hard against yourself?
because or A1s, or because of the must to study?
i don't understand. T.T

kks, gonna find some nice pictures and post, byes! :D
off to MAEGANSAL's house after breakfast!
teehee, rahh.

2010-05-28T18:50:00.003+08:00

♥211th post ; HAPPY :')

Okay, i've decided to let this matter rest.
I'll give you another chance,
the past doesn't matter as much anymore.
make use of this chance to be a loyal friend
I love you.
-/
Hello peoples! (:
went to sengkang swimming complex with father and brother today! ;D
ohmygod, its fun!
teehee, swimmed for 3++ hours and then go play the slide!
i choked on a mouth full of water. rahh. ;x
but overall, its still considered enjoyable.
ate the macs afterwards, mmm.
seriously rotting like hell at home nowadays.
haven't packed for malacca, haha!
gonna pack tml after returning from twin's(L) :D
eew manzxc, teachers gave us so much work,
hmm, gtg, byes!
MALACCA 31052010, here I come!
btw, wishing those going overseas BON VOYAGE!
HAPPY HOLIDAY PEOPLE!

yay! meeting ZiHuaBestfriend and GladysYBestie on 05062010! ftw! :DDD

2010-05-27T19:58:00.004+08:00

♥210th post ; Maths Trail.

Maths Trail today sucks manzxc! D:
the activities are like 100% boring and plus the weather is like super hot. :/
rahh, have to go for a total of 6 activities.
1. The measurment of the circumference & diameter, pui.
2. The reading of map scales, i fail my maths ehh. :(
3. The chocolate bar thingy plus JELLY ICE CREAM! :DD
4. Kite flying with group members, yay!
5. Gallery, no eating, no drinking. LOL.
6. The "mr krishnan" teach us something...wasn't listening. D:
HAHAHAHA, bus tripped there with my dearest MAEGANSAL. (:
crapped the most with Rachael, Jocelyne, Maegan, Daphne and Vanessa.
teehee, the bus ride was awesome, rachael kena bullied and sabo-ed. :P
then the weather was like super duper hot, burning. gah.
ran through the activities and played blach magic with RMJV. (L)
i think rachael got many horrible encounters theere huh, with INSECTS. EG.FLIES. :D
funny gahh, never met someone so scared of flies(:
bought ice cream and seaweed at the 3rd activity with Maegan,
rachael and jocelyne bought afterwards, mmmmm. ^^
carried on and camwhored alot at the gallery, got air-connnn manhs, won't get charred.
omgee, our kite flying skills sucks. :(
the kite won't fly! but me and Maegan have decided on kite flyings during june hols.
LOL, finally ended off with the last activity, rested and water coller-ed. :B
bus ride home was okay too, chatted with twin. ;DDD
twin went to make a beautiful cake for Andy, her brother.
followed her for fun, HAHAHA!
mymy, he'll be so touched to have such a great sister! (:
met Leonard in the bus home, exchanged repord books, yay!
went home and watched xwnds.
okay, thats all for npw, goodbyes peoples. enjoy your holidays!

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY ANDY! rahh.

i hate it, more than yesterday, less than tomorrow.

Marilyn, my trustworthy 24hours awesome friend...
just wanna tell you that you mean everything to me.
thank you so much for your encouragement,
and teaching and coaching in band.
i really do enjoy your accompaniment alot,
and i appreciate and know your sincerity towards me,
that even people closer to me don't.
I (L) YOU, THE MOST.

2010-05-26T20:43:00.006+08:00

♥209th post ; F.M.L these days. D:

To; my ~~dearest~~ you.
okay, I don't hate you, but that doesn't mean that I like you either.
your actions and speeches really irritates me, alot alot alot.
you think i'll really ~~accept~~ consider you qualified?
well, think again.
congratulations to you for being the MOST thick skinned person i've ever met.
don't you know how to see people's reaction when they don't like you?
okay, fine, no matter how much i crap here,
you will be too thick skinned to admit that its you.
and i guarantee you'll go to your blog and post the hell out of me.
i surrender to this kind of person like you.
i don't bother wasting my effort to think whether to post this anot.
i seriously don't mean to hurt you in anyway.
but if i accept you, you'll really "de chun jing chi".
i tried more than 5 times to accept you, but you failed me again and again.
how do you expect me to forgive you?
okay, this is an anti bad-word blog, so i'll zip.
just to let you know, i can't always let you get in your way.
you want me to give in to you in everything.
i actually fell so many times, but thanks to you, i've learnt a valuable lesson.
路遥知马力，日久见人心。
i thought you can be a super friend at first, but now.
i'm disgusted at even myself all because of you.
i may not show it infront of you, but you know i don't enjoy your accompaniment.
i don't care if you make use of others to make me "jealous" anot, cause you'll only make a fool out of yourself.
just a friendly advice,
stop making use of people all the time and hurting them when you have some other friends.
you'll only end up betraying yourself more than them okay.
you may still be able to find a reliable friend now if you surrender.
i admit, I LOVED YOU ONCE,
but now, not anymore, and it'll never will be.
you're my past, and i only care for my present and future.
sorry to disappoint you, byes forevere.
don't come and look for me again, i don't wish to call you a sore loser.

To; MY MOST BELOVED X333 TWIN! (L)
thanks so much my baby, for neevr giving up on me.
you know that i'll always love you, and cherish you more each day.
without you, my life would be a total disaster.
i seriously just LOVE doing ANYTHING, as long as its with you(:
and do you know tayht you've flooded my whole inbox?!
haha, i can't bear to delete any of your messages.
i will neevr forget the day you gave me ah bum for my birthday. 11042010! ♥
don't ever think that i'll be snatched away or anything,
i'm not that weak okay!
and i'm yours, forever and always, you're my present and future.
no matter what happens, trust me, i'll never leave you, never ever.
cause you mean everything to me!
i can't live without you my babaeh.
don't ever leave me too, i'm so gonna enjoy this holiday with you around! :D

I MISS PEIZIHUA AND GLADYSYEAOHAOJING! D:

xoxo, byes people, update more next time, its getting late.
and, don;t ever think that the first few lines of this post is dedicated to you,
cause you're my LOVE, and ohyea, my sweetest-diction (L)
i'm sorry if that post is aweful and screw up my character.
whatever, its a moment of folly?
but, i'm really upset and bothered, don't blame me.
I HEARTXZC : MARILYN SONG MAXCORE.
thanks for your important lesson today, ily ttm. xx.

Tomorrow getting back results and report cards,
please, i wish for the best. grant me, will you?

2010-05-24T19:00:00.008+08:00

♥208th post ; AWESOME DAY. :D

had lunch with MaeganSAL, VanessaSHJ and JennaGTA at kfc! {♥}
joked and crapped like 4 mad women laughing. :P
haha, really enjoyed it super duper much manzxc!
didn't know whether to go band or not...
but after loads of wild thoughts, decided not to go
then, realised my bag is in the band room,
brought in by huingoh, marilyn and victoria! (:
TQVM, my bestest friends! (L) xx.
clarinet till 5.40++ and chionged all the way home.
teehee, ate my awesome dinner and here i am!
sorry to fastforward do much. :(
in a rush to do some others things now.
&& the effing teachers gave us 5 or 6 projects so far to do over weekends. D:
plus some stupid retarded learning. RAHHHHH. :X
bye peoples, love you all x33. :D

LIFE IS UNFAIR,
just bear this in mind.

"first, you want a pass.
when you get a pass, you will curse and swear why you didnt get B .
when you get B, you will blame yourself and say, WHY CANT I GET A?!
when you finally get A, you will be super annoyed and irritated, saying,
WHY CANT I GET 1ST IN CLASS?! i miss by __ mark(s) ONLY!
when you get 1st in class for a subject, you will compare with other classes 1sts,
and say, WAH I LOSE TO HER/HIM LEH!!! UGH!"

Quoted from http://www.im-copyrighted.blogspot.com/ - ZINNIAAA. :D
i find it super meaningful.
why can't people just 知足 and be satisfied just to live, laugh, love?
we all want so much, expect so much.
but get a like, we'll still perish in the end.
might as well enjoy life,
i mean, its once in a lifetime opportunity.
anyway, im gonna appreciate what I have now and motivate myself.
thanks so much ZinniaDarlinq. Ily. (L)

再坏的人也一定会有她的好处；再好的人也一定会有她的坏处。

Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
i've gotta be strong.

ZINNIAAA(:
http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/touchinglovestories3.htm
for the ultimate touching love stories.

RAHHHHH, another emo post, oh well.

2010-05-23T11:24:00.006+08:00

♥207th post ; Randomness is loved.

Story 1:

A boy walked into a CD store and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

The phone rang.
The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"

It was the girl. She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday... "

The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn.

The mother opened another CD...
Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go outwith me? Love, Jacelyn.

Story 2:

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying..... "Just take care of my eyes dear." i'll always love you forever..

Story 3:

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.
Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?
Boy: Something has come up...
Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.
Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.
Boy: Baby, are you there??
Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important?
Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..
Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: I'm leaving...
Girl: Baby, what are u talking about? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.
Girl: Why? All of your famliy lives over here.
Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.
Girl: I can't believe this.
[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously
ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the
damn phone!! (And hangs up).]
Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.
Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.
Boy: Would you run away with me?
Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!
Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..
Girl: *Thinking*I can't believe what's going on.
Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on
flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.
Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.
Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives
her a note.]
Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.
Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)
Boy: Baby, dont cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.
Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]
It says...
"Erica,
You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the
right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
- Ricardo"
[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]

... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....
Friend: How are you feeling?
Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.
Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...
Girl: Umm.. okay.

[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,
It says:
"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will
.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Ricardo"]

Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me! He must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!
Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.
Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!

... Erica turns the T.V. on......
[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.
[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]

A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope you're not worried. I am staying for good ."

Story 4:

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the
remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier.

When I saw all the people there, I started to complain tomyself,"It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go.
Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year.How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it..."

Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really play with such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, "Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?"

The old lady replied, "You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear."

Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to.
"It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that may be Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly.
"No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there."

His eyes were so sad while saying this.

"My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister."

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket."

Story 5:

A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the 4 pups. And set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the eyes of little boy.

"Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies."

"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "These puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money."

The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer.

"I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?"

"Sure," said the farmer. And with that he let out a whistle. "Here, Dolly!" he called Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur.

The little boy pressed his face against the chain link
fence. His eyes danced with delight.As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else??stirring inside the doghouse. Slowly another little ball appeared, this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid Then in a somewhat awkward manner, the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up....

"I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt.

The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these
other dogs would."

With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers.In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both
sides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe.Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I
don't run too well myself, and he will need someone who understands."

With tears in his eyes, farmer reached down and picked up the little pup.Holding it carefully handed it to the little boy.

"How much?" asked the little boy. "No charge," answered the farmer, "There's no charge for love."

So touching right?
I just picked the top ones I like(:

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now

2010-05-23T09:02:00.002+08:00

♥206th post ; Lyrics-Invisible

She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
She’ll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can’t see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

There’s a fire inside of you that can’t help but shine through
She’s never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we’re Invisible
I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize

I just wanna show you she don’t even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible

She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile

Taylor Swift rocks socks manzxc! :D

2010-05-23T08:34:00.007+08:00

♥205th post ; RAWR, it means I Love You in dinosaur.

Came upon a story which I thought is worth reading...

A guy had a crush on this girl. He follows her wherever she goes.

One day the girl noticed & asked the guy:

Girl: Why do you keep on following me?

Boy: Because you’re so pretty and I think I’m falling in love with you.

Girl: Really? But you haven’t met my friend yet. She’s prettier than me and she’s right behind you.

The guy looked behind him but found no one.

Boy: Are you making fun of me? There’s no one behind me.

Girl: No, but if you really love me, you won’t look back.

Love is just a word till someone gives you its defination.
Promise means everything; but once its broken, sorry means nothing.

It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye.

Nothing hurts more than realising he meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

Love is a precious gift that people
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.

True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

Love starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear.

&& last but not least,
BON VOYAGE ZIHUA BESTFRIEND! :D (L)
一路顺风 (:

2010-05-22T21:17:00.006+08:00

♥204th post ; complicated feelings all mixed up.. :(

hello peoples, a short one for today kks.
firstly, goodbye scruffy, have a peaceful trip. :(
really can't bear for him to go manzxc.
we had a deal, we'll meet after end-of-year.
but, i guess this is all fated for him to leave.
i really missed the times maegan, rachael, jocelyne and me
played with him.
sadden by the sudden news. D:
anyways, goodbye, beloved hamster.
secondly, i miss maegan ttm can! (:
finally can see her tomorrow, happy eh!
taking back history and chinese tml.
asking myself what the effing shit i wrote for shiyongwen,
and how i didn't manage to complete history.
shucks manzxc, gonna do very badly.
it'll be a miracle if i pass history this time round.
but, its okay , since its no use talking about this now.
i shall enjoy my holiday,
make the fullest use of it to relax all i can,
and i promise to chiong all the way term 3 and 4.
idc, no obstacles can stop me from learning.
i really must hurry.
there's still chance for me to do well. :D
i must jiayous and stop fooling around.
special thanks to MarilynSYY for cheering me up alot.
thank you mummyy! (L)
your encouragement really brightened my day alot.
whether its by msg or post.
I ♥ you maxcore can! (:
talking to my dearest twin over the phone enlightened my day too.
love love love.
okay, a short post for this, byes.
not so in the mood to post now.
oh and, BON VOYAGE BESTF! ILYSM, xoxo.

I won't hold on to something I can't.
I look towards to the brighter future.